I've been on a break from blogging for quite some time because I got into trouble for it. So what's a blogger to do if her privacy and right are invaded? Change the url of your blogsite and keep the postings flowing...
Anyways, it's been a month since I last posted anything here and to keep you updated, let me fill you in on what I've been up to...
*I was regularized as a Team Supervisor effective September 1. No more feelings of uncertainty and doubt. Atleast not too much anymore.
*I just celebrated 3 years of stay at PeopleSupport as well. Another year? Do I hear the ticking of a Kenneth Cole watch? I don't think so..
* Got the award for being the Best Team for August. After months of being last amongst the micro team rankings, my team (MCROCKERS) got the highest rated team for last month..and hopefully if I get to fix our team's SAF, we will be gettig this month as well.
*Was the highest rated supervisor for August as well. =)
*One of my agents was promoted as Supervisor Trainee for a different account effective this October 15.
*Became a full pledged popcorn eating,soda drinking, movie buff for the whole month of September.
* Cancelled membership with Fitness First. Gained weight. Hoping to lose it by October.
*Sold my stocks...Should've not done it since it's much higher right now and the dollar rate is lower. Still finding time to bring my check to the bank.
*Bought the entire season of DVDs of TV shows that I want to watch on Saturdays, and come Sunday, watch all the episodes the whole day.
*Always had a great weekend for the entire month of September. was always looking forward to it all month.. sigh! =) Hopefully, it would still be the same for next..
Hmm.. I can't think of anything more. But basically, the goals that I want to achieve as a Supervisor that I have listed in my mind back then are already coming to life one by one, and I'm so proud of it. Thanks to God! Now how about giving me the same for my personal life as well... =) Well, a girl can't wish for too much..
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Saturday, September 30, 2006
Sunday, August 27, 2006
Thursday, August 10, 2006
Just don't want you to go
I'm sorry if I said 'bahala nga kayo"... I only said that because I was a bit upset that you suddenly submitted your letter, like you just did it for the sake of getting it over and done with. I just don't know how to react..what to do or what to say but be upset and be mad. We were both so quiet all throughout the ride, each of us both lost in our own thoughts. I will never knew what was going on your mind but I know mine is all about my life after you're gone, silently making a list of the reasons why I am being upset just because you're going to resign. So far, here's what I have thought of:
~I don't want you to go yet because I don't have someone to go home with every morning. The way home will be less interesting (and believe me, it is!)
~I don't want you to go because going to work every night won't be that exciting anymore because you won't be around (yeah, even if we just see each other in the morning, the thought of knowing you're just 2 floors below me is sort of comforting for some reason)
~I don't want you to go because I won't have anyone to watch my back, not just against the backbiting and unfairness in my account, but against everything else.
~I don't want you to go because Saturdays will be so lonely without you, hanging out with me.
~I don't want you to go because I won't have anyone to ask to comfortably whenever I need help with anything (especially with the MS application stuff!)
~I don't want you to go because you're the one who has become the closest to me, my confidante and probably my bestfriend right now.(yeah even if half the time we just trade jokes,and there are times when you can be a bit self-centered!)
~I don't want you to go because I just realized that you may be worth more to me than I could have thought of...and the thought of losing you just made me realize that...
~I don't want you to go because I just don't want to... period. Why? I don't know. I just don't know.
La na nga si Jaggy,sumunod ka pa agad...sana isa isa lang ang attrition di ba? =(
To be continued because writer is too much upset for still unknown reasons....
~I don't want you to go yet because I don't have someone to go home with every morning. The way home will be less interesting (and believe me, it is!)
~I don't want you to go because going to work every night won't be that exciting anymore because you won't be around (yeah, even if we just see each other in the morning, the thought of knowing you're just 2 floors below me is sort of comforting for some reason)
~I don't want you to go because I won't have anyone to watch my back, not just against the backbiting and unfairness in my account, but against everything else.
~I don't want you to go because Saturdays will be so lonely without you, hanging out with me.
~I don't want you to go because I won't have anyone to ask to comfortably whenever I need help with anything (especially with the MS application stuff!)
~I don't want you to go because you're the one who has become the closest to me, my confidante and probably my bestfriend right now.(yeah even if half the time we just trade jokes,and there are times when you can be a bit self-centered!)
~I don't want you to go because I just realized that you may be worth more to me than I could have thought of...and the thought of losing you just made me realize that...
~I don't want you to go because I just don't want to... period. Why? I don't know. I just don't know.
La na nga si Jaggy,sumunod ka pa agad...sana isa isa lang ang attrition di ba? =(
To be continued because writer is too much upset for still unknown reasons....
Saturday, August 05, 2006
The Long Week that was....
It's been a long week for me.. I'm glad that I'm on my weekend restday and I'll get to spend the whole day Sunday in my bed until I go to work for hopefully a better week. Being a supervisor can be oh so draining at times, and it doesn't help that you have lost confidence in the higher powers of my professional life. Sometimes, I find myself just staring at my pc aimlessly at the excel sheets, email floods, feedback forms,jabber broadcasts and a hundred other things that are messing up my screen, until someone will approach me and interrupt me to ask for a bank routing number. Like what someone told me, it comes with the job . Now, I'm sort of low in the confidence department right now. I'm really just a step away from my judgement day when suddenly, Mr. Bean called me one day in his presence and told me that I was somehow responsible (although he made a disclaimer that it was not so, but who is HE kidding?) for two agents who were given warnings because of the performance management program. I was surprised because I was not expecting that those two agents will be one, my close friend and agent 2 is someone who even praised me in her appraisal. I really felt bad after that time that I wanted to cry. Ofcourse, being a supervisor, you don't have the right to show your personal emotions especially to your agents who are also low in morale themselves because of the things that have been happening on the floor since they look up to you for motivation and inspiration. I distanced myself from my peers,just getting in touch with them on official and business matters (I don't care if they will take this personally against me since what we require is just harmonious working relationship and not be chummy with each other). I just do whatever needs to be done in my work. I know that I may seem alienating myself, but I am not really a hypocrite. I had seen enough. With all the demands and expectations of my position right now, I have learned that the simplest things are the reasons why I always made it through the day in one piece. I find my solace with the few (oh so few) of my true friends who has the initiative to drop by my station and amuse or make me laugh with silly jokes and the latest gossip and who really asks me how I am feeling right now. I find my relief everytime I see my 'sundo' as I know that his presence always meant that we will soon be going home,as soon as I finish whatever I have to do for the day, which will prompt me to really finish it double time to just get out of the floor. I feel a rush everytime I receive a particular jab from someone as I know that this will result to a fruitful exchange of ideas(stimulating), I find some slack in having my lunch break with the non-ops people nowadays as this gives me free time away from ops floor. Seeing someone from my direct reports thank me because I have helped them in improving their performance reminds me that this job in this account can still be rewarding afterall. I love it when I know it's Friday shift since this means that it will be Saturday in a few hours and it's my restday and I can't wait to eat lunch somewhere good. These are the things that kept me alive this past week. I wonder what will happen for next week?
Wednesday, July 19, 2006
The Kilig Factor
At first I was not noticing you..You were just another face that I see everyday...But then, one fine day, I started to notice you in a different light...I don't know why..maybe it's the fact that others are also quite taken by your silent charm. The following days were really something else... I may seem like someone who can really hide her feelings because no one seem to notice it..That I am one of your silent admirers. But then,I know this is nothing serious..again, like any other good guys out there, it's impossible that you're not taken yet.... So what? I always look forward coming in every night (and it's good that we both have the same rest days already) since I know I'll be catching a glimpse of you even from afar... It's my own private escape to revel in the feeling of contained happiness at every moment that our eyes will meet, or whenever you'll find time to get in touch with me about anything. Sigh! Thanks for making my days extra special (and more bearable...) =)
Sunday, July 16, 2006
Friday, July 14, 2006
The Time to Tell
Let me take the time out to give a tribute to my cat of more than 10 years who passed away 2 weeks ago..To Polgosa, my very sociable and darling cat, I know your'e at kitty heaven right now..may you rest in peace! It's a shame though that you couldn't wait until I get married or maybe just have a new guy to entertain, since you're so good at it!)
Let me take the time out as well to announce that come July 16, I'm a Supervisor (Trainee) for 3 mos now... how time just flew by and I could not believe how I survived those sleepless (most of the time) days and nights.... Learned a lot and discovered a lot of things within myself... also discovered that a Supervisor is not just a Supervisor, but a million other roles as well....
Let me take the time out as well to tell you that I have developed a crush on someone (and nope it's not HIM), and it seems to grow more everyday, while my relationship with the obvious seems to fade for the reason I don't know why... (is it me, is it you, or is it the classic saying familiarity breeds contempt?)
Let me take the time out as well to tell you that I just confirmed that crush is currently in a relationship right now (awww..disappointed)..and I actually searched his profile in friendster).. Sigh!
Let me take the time out to tell you that I am really considering (and really) to distance myself from HIM, since I am oh so tired of the guessing game (which with the clues I am getting, wala naman siguro talaga. I'm a bit upset with him right now because I did not like the way he replied at the chatpad last night when I commented why it takes so much time before he ca answer my question, which is simply,
pwede ba sumabay sa lunch mo?..which he answered,
sorry, rep lang ako...kaya may calls, q'in kami..sorryand I was like, where did that come from? What's with the mean streak? What happend to the If they treat you badly there, you know where to find me... Maybe, he's just having a bad day since he also got into a row with one of his friends in retention, who he favors more nowadays..
Let me take the time out to tell you that I almost submitted my resignation letter (I know, I know, this is also one thing that never seems to materialize) because of my so called Principles..Wow, I feel so righteous! I am ready to give up my current stature just because I can't take the whitewash and politics in our account. My mom just talked me out of it and the thought that my friends are there (including the one who I am supposed to look for anytime Im i trouble) to keep me sane and to keep my feet planted firmly in the ground, until I become regularized!
Let me take the time out to tell you that I'll be having weekends off again (10pm-7am) Whoopee! I am supposed to have 3 consecutive rest days but since I have tons of paperwork to do (feedback and all), I have to go towork tonight!
Let me take the time out to tell you that I should be resting right now because I am so sleepy and I still have to go to work tonight....Till next time!
Good day folks!
Tuesday, July 04, 2006
On a CTO
It's the 4th of July and I don't have work tonight! What a joy!=) My restdays have changed by the way...so I really have Saturdays off.. I just hope that it's going to be permanent.Watched Superman Returns last Sunday with the Troopers. Was a bit fun since we get to see Techy. I'm glad that misunderstanding was cleared between me,Aya, Amy and Alex (triple As!) Anyways, Superman was not that great, but it was not a flop either. It was a bit funny because Alex and I were marching in front of the whole audience just as the movie was starting, with the theme song and all...everyone was laughing by the time we reached our seats. Just finished my Supervisor's training. I really wished I would be regularized soon. Wishing and hoping...
Saturday, June 24, 2006
Sleepless!
I'm back in the early shift for now because of the Supervisor training. Wheee! I first thought...My shift begins at 6.30 and ends at 3.30...Atleast that's supposed to be that way. However, for the past 5 days, I always have barely 4 hours of sleep.Sure I can take like 2 days straight of having an unhealthy sleeping hours..but 5 days is something different. Training is a different world where I get to be student again...learning a lot to become an effective leader to my reps.. once back in the floor, since I don't get to see them yet, I am so wasted that I usually just stare at my PC screen and be in a trance... usually, I just chat away in the Troopers private chat folder to help me loosen up (and to prove a point to someone).. I do have several deliverables to finish...but I am so wasted that I could not think clearly to do the things that I should be doing. Plus, I felt that I have aged at least 10 years and my face is breaking out from lack of sleep. Who says that a supervisor's job is all sitting down in your behind???. Thank goodness it's already a weekend...finally I have a Saturday restday..what a joy!
Just when you thought that the honest persons in the world are already extinct..here comes one incident that might make me doubt (at least a little. Due to lack of sleep, and fretful search of a gum, I accidentally dropped my wallet on a bus to Las Pinas. I was not aware of it until I was halfway on a jeep to Lopez and I discovered that my wallet is missing. At first, I was not really concerned because I just have 100 bucks in there, plus ccredit cards and atm cards which I can easily replace. Good thing that I also had coins in my bag so I can still pay for my fare. |I was ok with..not nuch affected when I suddenly realized that my Fitness First ID was also there! Shoot! That's 400 bucks in replacement fee.. I suddenly felt dejected that I felt like crying because I have to pay that fee. I was really hopeless in seeing my wallet ever again but lo and behold, someone found my wallet (a messenger)and surrendered it to China Bank who in return reported it to PS. What joy! I picked my wallet from the bank (which is by the way, BDO) and saw that everything is still there. I dont even have any accounts wth them) The messenger was not there so I was not able to personally thank him. I was planning to buy him and the manager some brownies or something but because I already reported all my cards lost, getting money is a bit hassle right now. Anycase, thanks to that messenger who has been so kind enough to return my wallet... God bless you! =)
Off to bed please!
Just when you thought that the honest persons in the world are already extinct..here comes one incident that might make me doubt (at least a little. Due to lack of sleep, and fretful search of a gum, I accidentally dropped my wallet on a bus to Las Pinas. I was not aware of it until I was halfway on a jeep to Lopez and I discovered that my wallet is missing. At first, I was not really concerned because I just have 100 bucks in there, plus ccredit cards and atm cards which I can easily replace. Good thing that I also had coins in my bag so I can still pay for my fare. |I was ok with..not nuch affected when I suddenly realized that my Fitness First ID was also there! Shoot! That's 400 bucks in replacement fee.. I suddenly felt dejected that I felt like crying because I have to pay that fee. I was really hopeless in seeing my wallet ever again but lo and behold, someone found my wallet (a messenger)and surrendered it to China Bank who in return reported it to PS. What joy! I picked my wallet from the bank (which is by the way, BDO) and saw that everything is still there. I dont even have any accounts wth them) The messenger was not there so I was not able to personally thank him. I was planning to buy him and the manager some brownies or something but because I already reported all my cards lost, getting money is a bit hassle right now. Anycase, thanks to that messenger who has been so kind enough to return my wallet... God bless you! =)
Off to bed please!
Saturday, June 10, 2006
Moving Forward
....Moving Forward...
Starbucks...somewhere between 1 in the afternoon, Saturday
"sasabihin ko na sa'yo...mag susubmit na ako ng resignation next week..."
"ok"(Speechless)
In front of the PC.... somewhere between 7 in the evening, Saturday
I'm still speechless...wanted to say a lot but can't....funny..you'll be going away and still I can't bring myself to say what's inside me to save my life (or maybe to make you stay, oh I forgot, "wala naman akong inspirasyon" ouch!)
Well, I did get to let you know a small part of what I wanted to say...through YM... I thought that it somehow changed your mind... somehow..but I guess not when again you brought it up... I said nothing..what do you expect? I can't even comment..I could just make a face. I really can't bear the thought that the very person who I look forward seeing everyday, to be with at the end of the day.. and I know who will be waiting for me too will no longer be there...and I'll be alone..But I can't be selfish..I know that somehow you might find what you'll be looking for in those greener pastures that you've been pointing out... "Wala naman mag babago eh..di na nga lang kayo makakatambay sa station ko." "False hope...parang kang si Jimbo. Don't give out false hopes"
Probably I'm foolish to think that this will somehow last forever or I'll be the one to go so I won't be the one who'll be left behind between the two of us (napromote pa kasi ako eh!).. or we'll be leaving at the same time... but reality check...NO! It's hard..but I have to accept the changes...
Moving Forward..
Starbucks...somewhere between 1 in the afternoon, Saturday
"sasabihin ko na sa'yo...mag susubmit na ako ng resignation next week..."
"ok"(Speechless)
In front of the PC.... somewhere between 7 in the evening, Saturday
I'm still speechless...wanted to say a lot but can't....funny..you'll be going away and still I can't bring myself to say what's inside me to save my life (or maybe to make you stay, oh I forgot, "wala naman akong inspirasyon" ouch!)
Well, I did get to let you know a small part of what I wanted to say...through YM... I thought that it somehow changed your mind... somehow..but I guess not when again you brought it up... I said nothing..what do you expect? I can't even comment..I could just make a face. I really can't bear the thought that the very person who I look forward seeing everyday, to be with at the end of the day.. and I know who will be waiting for me too will no longer be there...and I'll be alone..But I can't be selfish..I know that somehow you might find what you'll be looking for in those greener pastures that you've been pointing out... "Wala naman mag babago eh..di na nga lang kayo makakatambay sa station ko." "False hope...parang kang si Jimbo. Don't give out false hopes"
Probably I'm foolish to think that this will somehow last forever or I'll be the one to go so I won't be the one who'll be left behind between the two of us (napromote pa kasi ako eh!).. or we'll be leaving at the same time... but reality check...NO! It's hard..but I have to accept the changes...
Moving Forward..
Tuesday, May 16, 2006
The Big 25
Few days now....It's my birthday again.. so what? I wonder what endless possibilities will happen this year?
Tuesday, May 09, 2006
Crazy over this feeling
As if I haven't tortured myself enough...
A lot of things are happening in my life right now..things I've been discovering in myself..
Drats! I really have to start keeping my promises...
Wednesday, May 03, 2006
Straight from Cebu...
I'm writing this entry at a net cafe from SM Cebu.. Yup, you read it right..I'm at Cebu right now with the Troopers, this is the last leg of our 4 day vacation trip.
Drats! I feel like crying...I've discovered (or accidently saw) something that probably would change how I view and act any possibilities that might happen between the two of us.. =(
So far, I had fun visiting the tourist spots in Bohol... I will post the pictures probabaly once I've uploaded them.
But now, I have to contemplate the future of a non-existent lovelife.. Maybe it's better to be consumed with my work right now in order to numb the pain.
Drats! I feel like crying...I've discovered (or accidently saw) something that probably would change how I view and act any possibilities that might happen between the two of us.. =(
So far, I had fun visiting the tourist spots in Bohol... I will post the pictures probabaly once I've uploaded them.
But now, I have to contemplate the future of a non-existent lovelife.. Maybe it's better to be consumed with my work right now in order to numb the pain.
Sunday, April 16, 2006
What's in a Name?
My first day as an official Sup Trainee for PeoplePC! But technically, I am already acting out as a supervisor for the past week and I feel a bit weird, like sending out emails to workforce to check agent logs or trying to get used to having my signature as Team Supervisor Trainee...
I already have my direct reports,,16 all in all. So far, I have some of the best..I just hope that we would be doing well in terms of team stats..And I will be able to be an effective coach and mentor to them. We had our very first team meeting. So far, everything went well...Everyone seems like they would cooperate, and of course, I hope they will.
One problem caught us off guard, though... What will be our team name? After a moment of silence... (my name, common as it may seem, really is a challenge when it comes to thinking of a striking team name that can be associated with it..)
After a good 10 minutes of racking our brains out, someone came up with this:
MCRami Sales...
Any reactions would be highly appreciated!
Monday, April 10, 2006
Why do you want to apply for this position?
Why do you want to apply for this position?
This is the question that was bugging me for the last week..
Now I've crossed over to a different side..
New schedule, new people to deal with, new lifestyle, new phone, new position..
and all because I might just have answered this question right..on my own..without any help..
This Side
One day you'll see her and you'll know what I mean.
Take her or leave her she will still be the same.
She'll not try to buy you with her time.
But nothing's the same, as you will see when she's gone.
It's foreign on this side,
And I'll not leave my home again.
There's no place to hide
And I'm nothing but scared.
You dream of colors that have never been made,
You imagine songs that have never been played.
They will try to buy you and your mind.
Only the curious have something to find.
It's foreign on this side,
And the truth is a bitter friend.
But reasons few have I to go back again.
Your first dawn blinded you, left you cursing the day.
Entrance is crucial and it's not without pain.
There's no path to follow, once you're here.
You'll climb up the slide and then you'll slide down the stairs.
It's foreign on this side,
But it feels like I'm home again.
There's no place to hide
But I don't think I'm scared.
(there's no place to hide)
(there's no place to hide)
But I don't think I'm scared.
(there's no place to hide)
But I don't think I'm scared...
This is the question that was bugging me for the last week..
Now I've crossed over to a different side..
New schedule, new people to deal with, new lifestyle, new phone, new position..
and all because I might just have answered this question right..on my own..without any help..
This Side
One day you'll see her and you'll know what I mean.
Take her or leave her she will still be the same.
She'll not try to buy you with her time.
But nothing's the same, as you will see when she's gone.
It's foreign on this side,
And I'll not leave my home again.
There's no place to hide
And I'm nothing but scared.
You dream of colors that have never been made,
You imagine songs that have never been played.
They will try to buy you and your mind.
Only the curious have something to find.
It's foreign on this side,
And the truth is a bitter friend.
But reasons few have I to go back again.
Your first dawn blinded you, left you cursing the day.
Entrance is crucial and it's not without pain.
There's no path to follow, once you're here.
You'll climb up the slide and then you'll slide down the stairs.
It's foreign on this side,
But it feels like I'm home again.
There's no place to hide
But I don't think I'm scared.
(there's no place to hide)
(there's no place to hide)
But I don't think I'm scared.
(there's no place to hide)
But I don't think I'm scared...
Saturday, April 01, 2006
Am I or Am I Not?
If I'm not in love with you
What is this I'm going through, tonight?
And if this heart is lying
Then what should I believe in?
Why do I go crazy?
Every time I think about you baby
Why else do I want you like I do?
If I'm not in love with you
And if I don't need your touch
Why do I miss you so much, tonight?
If it's just infatuation
Then why is my heart aching
To hold you forever
Give a part of me I thought I'd never
Give again to someone I could lose
If I'm not in love with you
Oh, why in every fantasy
Do I feel your arms embracing me?
Like lovers lost in sweet desire
And why in dreams do I surrender
Like a little baby
How do I explain this feeling?
Someone tell me
If I'm not in love with you
What is this I'm going through, tonight?
And if this heart is lying
Then what should I believe in?
Why do I go crazy?
Every time I think about you baby
Why else do I want you like I do...
What is this I'm going through, tonight?
And if this heart is lying
Then what should I believe in?
Why do I go crazy?
Every time I think about you baby
Why else do I want you like I do?
If I'm not in love with you
And if I don't need your touch
Why do I miss you so much, tonight?
If it's just infatuation
Then why is my heart aching
To hold you forever
Give a part of me I thought I'd never
Give again to someone I could lose
If I'm not in love with you
Oh, why in every fantasy
Do I feel your arms embracing me?
Like lovers lost in sweet desire
And why in dreams do I surrender
Like a little baby
How do I explain this feeling?
Someone tell me
If I'm not in love with you
What is this I'm going through, tonight?
And if this heart is lying
Then what should I believe in?
Why do I go crazy?
Every time I think about you baby
Why else do I want you like I do...
Thursday, March 30, 2006
In a Sad State
I am bit depressed and torn right now.. How come the person who I expected to be right there for me was actually the one who let me down??
I'm getting a bit tired and sad right now of all the things that have been happening in my life right now.. I'm getting a bit lost. Right now, what I would like is something that is a sure thing for a change... not something that I would always second guess or figure out.
I feel that some people have taken me granted and I don't really want to feel that I am being unappreciated anymore.
I'm getting a bit tired and sad right now of all the things that have been happening in my life right now.. I'm getting a bit lost. Right now, what I would like is something that is a sure thing for a change... not something that I would always second guess or figure out.
I feel that some people have taken me granted and I don't really want to feel that I am being unappreciated anymore.
Wednesday, March 08, 2006
Doubting Thomas
I first heard it from my cousin... that the people you might mingle with at the workplace aren't necessarily your friends. His reason? It's because it's just that you don't have any choice. Circumstances is forcing you to socialize, to be with them in order to survive the workplace. It's just like the text message that Alvin D. sent me...it's part hypocrisy and part self-interest.
Monday, March 06, 2006
After the Long Hiatus
I was considering closing this blog site of mine. Well... here I am writing again... A lot of things are going on my mind these past few days..I came so close to resigning..again..this must be the nth time and I really don't know anymore how and to what reason I'll probably be resigning for real.. I am now living the normal life..meaning that I get to wake up in the morning..daytime if you will, to go to work like any other normal being..and go home at night, with rush hour traffic and all. I was assigned to help out the new batch of reps who will be coming in and the training schedule was set on a morning. Anyway, so here I am.. living the normal life for the next 4 days or so..
Right now, I am excited about the trip that me and the Troopers will make this coming April. We'll be going to Cebu and Bohol..really can't wait, although, I was originally planning a vacation all by myself..you know to explore and maybe have some time to think about everything in my life...all by myself. Looks like I have to put aside the idea for the meantime.
Right now, I am excited about the trip that me and the Troopers will make this coming April. We'll be going to Cebu and Bohol..really can't wait, although, I was originally planning a vacation all by myself..you know to explore and maybe have some time to think about everything in my life...all by myself. Looks like I have to put aside the idea for the meantime.
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