Sleepless!

I'm back in the early shift for now because of the Supervisor training. Wheee! I first thought...My shift begins at 6.30 and ends at 3.30...Atleast that's supposed to be that way. However, for the past 5 days, I always have barely 4 hours of sleep.Sure I can take like 2 days straight of having an unhealthy sleeping hours..but 5 days is something different. Training is a different world where I get to be student again...learning a lot to become an effective leader to my reps.. once back in the floor, since I don't get to see them yet, I am so wasted that I usually just stare at my PC screen and be in a trance... usually, I just chat away in the Troopers private chat folder to help me loosen up (and to prove a point to someone).. I do have several deliverables to finish...but I am so wasted that I could not think clearly to do the things that I should be doing. Plus, I felt that I have aged at least 10 years and my face is breaking out from lack of sleep. Who says that a supervisor's job is all sitting down in your behind???. Thank goodness it's already a weekend...finally I have a Saturday restday..what a joy!

Just when you thought that the honest persons in the world are already extinct..here comes one incident that might make me doubt (at least a little. Due to lack of sleep, and fretful search of a gum, I accidentally dropped my wallet on a bus to Las Pinas. I was not aware of it until I was halfway on a jeep to Lopez and I discovered that my wallet is missing. At first, I was not really concerned because I just have 100 bucks in there, plus ccredit cards and atm cards which I can easily replace. Good thing that I also had coins in my bag so I can still pay for my fare. |I was ok with..not nuch affected when I suddenly realized that my Fitness First ID was also there! Shoot! That's 400 bucks in replacement fee.. I suddenly felt dejected that I felt like crying because I have to pay that fee. I was really hopeless in seeing my wallet ever again but lo and behold, someone found my wallet (a messenger)and surrendered it to China Bank who in return reported it to PS. What joy! I picked my wallet from the bank (which is by the way, BDO) and saw that everything is still there. I dont even have any accounts wth them) The messenger was not there so I was not able to personally thank him. I was planning to buy him and the manager some brownies or something but because I already reported all my cards lost, getting money is a bit hassle right now. Anycase, thanks to that messenger who has been so kind enough to return my wallet... God bless you! =)

Off to bed please!

Moving Forward

....Moving Forward...

Starbucks...somewhere between 1 in the afternoon, Saturday

"sasabihin ko na sa'yo...mag susubmit na ako ng resignation next week..."

"ok"(Speechless)

In front of the PC.... somewhere between 7 in the evening, Saturday

I'm still speechless...wanted to say a lot but can't....funny..you'll be going away and still I can't bring myself to say what's inside me to save my life (or maybe to make you stay, oh I forgot, "wala naman akong inspirasyon" ouch!)

Well, I did get to let you know a small part of what I wanted to say...through YM... I thought that it somehow changed your mind... somehow..but I guess not when again you brought it up... I said nothing..what do you expect? I can't even comment..I could just make a face. I really can't bear the thought that the very person who I look forward seeing everyday, to be with at the end of the day.. and I know who will be waiting for me too will no longer be there...and I'll be alone..But I can't be selfish..I know that somehow you might find what you'll be looking for in those greener pastures that you've been pointing out... "Wala naman mag babago eh..di na nga lang kayo makakatambay sa station ko." "False hope...parang kang si Jimbo. Don't give out false hopes"

Probably I'm foolish to think that this will somehow last forever or I'll be the one to go so I won't be the one who'll be left behind between the two of us (napromote pa kasi ako eh!).. or we'll be leaving at the same time... but reality check...NO! It's hard..but I have to accept the changes...


Moving Forward..