I Kissed Dating goodbye...(well not entirely!) and others...

Been reading the book that lola Carms gave me 2 Christmas(es)ago. It's I kissed Dating Goodbye by Joshua Harris. Yup...It took me about 2 years to get to finally read the book entirely. I got to read a few chapters back then but I never did got to finish it. I am almost down to the last few chapters and I have to say that although the author (which is cute by the way), have these idealistic views about how a righteous relationship should be, he has some pretty good points about how you should view romantic relationships and even if I know that I really won't be able to really follow what he has written down (on this book you really have to avoid being in a relationship if you are not intending to end up in marriage), it did helped me change my perspective when it comes to romantic interests. For example, I have decided not to dwell on the fact that I'm still single. I've learned to focus my singlehood into more enriching activities. (I'm still thinking what those activities should be..) In any case, I've learned to really not waste my time moping and sour graping why after 2 years, I'm still not able to find anyone to hook up with formally.

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The weekend is coming to an end as I finish writing this entry... I'm finally shipping out of Experian, which has been my account for the past two years and to which I know all the terms by heart and could speak out the spiels even if I am asleep....My comfort zone. I'll be training for Earthlink, well, it's People PC actually, starting tomorrow, and I'll say that there is no turning back. I'll be with some of my friends, Kat, Ami and Jaggy. Alex signed up for the transfer as well, but for some reason, Aya and Rod did not make it, and retention does not want to give away some of its agents. Kaka, on the meanwhile, took off to Expedia without me. Hmm.. Although for the first few days of training, my schedule will be basically the same, 8pm-6am, I'm now beginning to wonder what my shift would be once I begin taking calls. I really hope it's nothing too drastic like I'll suddenly be on the morning shift or something. I'm certainly going to miss someone.

Spent the day watching the vcds I bought for 99 bucks each. I bought 3. Alex recommended I watched his favorite movie of all time, A Few Good Men. Although I was very interested in watching it, I was also expecting to be probably half bored by it especially at the start of the movie. But I was wrong. I really liked the movie...Very much. I liked the ending when the verdict was read out, and sadly, the 2 officers were dismissed and discharged. Jack Nicholson was great...And Tom Cruise is adorable. Thank goodness that the movie did not include any romantic plots between Tom and Demi Moore's characters. I also got a copy of my fave episodes of Sex and the City. It was where Carrie celebrated her birthday and the other was where she modeled for a fashion event and tripped on a runaway. I really love it! :) I still have to finish Stand By Me, which I have read as a book as well by Stephen King.

My highschool friends are planning a reunion on October 1. We've been sending updates in Friendster through the bulletin board and so far, the number of attendees are growing. My name is actually on top of the list and as I read the other people who were added I came across the name I was not expecting. Hah! My ex,who will be named *Unwell, who I never saw or heard from, for more than a year now. I suddenly got a strange feeling inside me. I felt compelled not to go all of a sudden. It's not that I'm still hung up on him or something (I am so over him ages ago..Please!) Its just that I really don't know how to act around him or towards him. I just feel that it's going to be strange, to be seeing him again, and worse, with people who were witnesses of our previous romantic relationship.

I think I would just like to go to that Nina concert after all......

I'm really having the jitters here about starting anew on Monday for Earthlink..Especially with its effect in my life. I pray to God that everything would turn out right.



* I have decided to give out codenames for those had/have/might have any romantic links with me, as to protect their identities while I write down the most absurd things about them....

Crossroad

Experian or Expedia? To stay or to move on??? That is the question that plagues me right now and I only have about 2 hours to decide......

For a Love that never was and For the two years that seem not like it...

years, originally uploaded by mramos.

For the work which seemed so trivial, but has given me so much more:

Ok, so I have been living the nocturnal life for more than 2 years now... (just turned 2 last September 1) Because of that I probably earned more than 100 thousand by this time, bought a couple of high-end gadgets with those earnings, met people who became special, I know who I will never forget , travelled to places with people other than my family,able to buy the things I want, got my first credit card, got into debt because of that, discovered myself, found out I can be a bitch too, was able to discover the talent of multi-tasking (such as eating while talking to a customer; listening to a customer while making small talk with your friends) fell inlove (i think), learned to rationalize who might be wrong for me and who might be right, is trying to learn how to accept that fact....

I can go on and on with the things that I unraveled because of working at PS, but this blog would not be enough for that. I sure am thankful for this opportunity that God gave me.

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...and for the love that will never be (because I say so, ok?)

HOW CAN I FALL?

Give me time to care, the moments here for us to share
Still my heart is not always there
What more can I say to you

Could I lie to you, Im just too
weak to face the truth
Now I know I should make a move
What more can I say

How can I fall, how can I fall
When you just wont give me
reasons

When you just wont give me
reasons at all

When all faith is gone, I fight
myself to carry on

Yet I know of the harm I do, what
more can I say to you

Now I hold this line, I know the
choice to leave is mine
I cant help what I feel inside

What more can I say

How can I fall, how can I fall
When you just wont give me reasons
When you just wont give me reasons at all

Ill follow through, Ill see I do
When the time is more right for you

Ill make that move, and when I do
Will I doubt again, the way I do

How can I fall, how can I fall
When you just wont give me reasons at all

How can I fall, how can I fall
When you just wont give me reasons
When you just wont give me reasons

How can I fall, how can I fall
When you just wont give me reasons
When you just wont give me reasons

Just wont give me reasons
Just wont give me reasons at all

How can I fall, I fall, I fall
How can I fall for you

How can I fall, how can I fall
When you just wont give me reasons
When you just wont give me reasons

The Galera Expedition

Just got back from Puerto Galera... Had fun with some of the Troopers, although Kaka (yes, we already made up!) and Rod were not able to join us, we still managed to enjoy ourselves silly. The trip was impromptu... We were supposed to go to Majayjay Falls at Laguna., but because of the weather, and raging emotions (hehehe!), the group agreed to go to Puerto Galera instead. With a limited budget and hoping against hope that it was not raining there (it was raining cats and dogs in manila, with a possible storm looming ahead), our group of 6, (with Alex the lone guy..), braved our way through traffic, sleepiness, and sea sickness to our white sand beach getaway. Here are the evidences of our weekend spree:






















There's only one thing I want to say: "sana maulit!"

One Fine Day...

....And I thought it was just another day going home....

I just wanted to say this...I feel glad that you opened up a part of yourself to me... It's so crazy that everytime I vowed to myself that everything between us is so absurd and not right, and that I already said to myself that I should just go and move on...fate, the universe, chance or maybe God gives me these kind of circumstances that urges me to stay on longer.

What transpired really made me understand you more...although you still get on my nerves sometimes.....