Blogging with a Purpose

I know I haven't blogged for the longest time. With my busy schedule managing and serving as a psychologist, secretary,coach, teacher, advisor, mediator and whatever role my job needs to the 12 or more people I manage everyday , plus the fact that blogspot requires one to log in with a gmail account..which I do have ,but for the love of me, I always seem to forget what username I have for it, I had totally forgotten to update my page.. until now ofcourse.

It started with Mr. A telling me that he signed up to start a whole new "public blog". I was amused upon hearing about it since this means that I will be able to know "superficially" what goes on that head of his, even though I really don't need a blog to know about it. With that, I decided to pay my own li'l spot a visit, without the intentions of updating it - just want to look around, read the things I have written in the past... Though, I did updated the links and my profile picture. I kept on seeing that picture of me lying sideways and I decided to finally give it a rest and upload a different one with more - uhm.. sophistication? Hehe!

Anyways, its not until I came across each entry that I had written over the years that I have noticed that there are actual comments left by actual readers that I never knew I had. I mean, back then, the people who usually read my blog are my friends and some relatives ( and I got into trouble because of it! that's a different story though!)..people I knew, but right now, I'm seeing that there are other people who are actually responding to the silly things I'm writing here and who are able to relate to what I'm writing about. I glanced over the dates on when the comments were posted and the latest one I've seen was just last year. I immediately checked the comment settings on my blog and have found out that I haven't turned that feature on where they'll send you a notification that someone has left a comment on my page. Drats! So now, dear readers, I already have turned it on so I'll be able to respond in a timely manner.

So there you go, a blog with a purpose. It's good to know that you can certainly reach out to a lot of people in your own li'l way. May it be to inform, share, or just rant, I'm sure that there will be someone who would just feel the same way or will be gaining insight from my everyday mishaps. With this, I'll continue to share my thoughts, stories and anecdotes constantly...just don't tell Mr. A about it!

I'm back! ☺

Harry's Last Stand

Right now, I'm taking a short break from reading the final book from the Harry Potter series : Harry Potter and the Deathly Hollows. I'm actually down to Chapter 11 and I'm really finding the whole story full of adrenaline rush with all the close calls and attacks the characters have to go through during the first few chapters. Whew! Don't worry, I'm not going to spill the beans or anything. It would be best if you would be reading it for yourself, right? I must admit that I'm torn between trying to finish everything today before I go back to work tomorrow early morning, or just relishing each line (just like what Rednax must be doing!) since this would be the last time that I would ever read anything new about the most popular wizard in the world. I remember the first time I came across the story of Harry Potter and his magical world. I was in college then and I was already hearing about the craze about it. I first saw the movie.. I was awed and it made me want to buyt the first 3 books then. But not until I read the Goblet of Fire, which I really want to thank my former sweetheart, who graciously and unselfishly lent me the book to read, even though he was not done with it yet and his brother might kill him for lending it to someone. It became my favorite book in the series and I was hooked.

FACt: I have never bought a single Harry Potter book in my life. Yeah, I actually read all of them, and we even have all but the Goblet book, (most of them were acquired by my sister, and their British copies to boot! and Order of the Phoenix was bought by my sister). But I will buy my own copy, and am prepared to shell out 1305 bucks for a hardcopy since this would be the last book..

Oh well, back to reading.. "Accio, book!" hehe.

Sleepless!

I'm back in the early shift for now because of the Supervisor training. Wheee! I first thought...My shift begins at 6.30 and ends at 3.30...Atleast that's supposed to be that way. However, for the past 5 days, I always have barely 4 hours of sleep.Sure I can take like 2 days straight of having an unhealthy sleeping hours..but 5 days is something different. Training is a different world where I get to be student again...learning a lot to become an effective leader to my reps.. once back in the floor, since I don't get to see them yet, I am so wasted that I usually just stare at my PC screen and be in a trance... usually, I just chat away in the Troopers private chat folder to help me loosen up (and to prove a point to someone).. I do have several deliverables to finish...but I am so wasted that I could not think clearly to do the things that I should be doing. Plus, I felt that I have aged at least 10 years and my face is breaking out from lack of sleep. Who says that a supervisor's job is all sitting down in your behind???. Thank goodness it's already a weekend...finally I have a Saturday restday..what a joy!

Just when you thought that the honest persons in the world are already extinct..here comes one incident that might make me doubt (at least a little. Due to lack of sleep, and fretful search of a gum, I accidentally dropped my wallet on a bus to Las Pinas. I was not aware of it until I was halfway on a jeep to Lopez and I discovered that my wallet is missing. At first, I was not really concerned because I just have 100 bucks in there, plus ccredit cards and atm cards which I can easily replace. Good thing that I also had coins in my bag so I can still pay for my fare. |I was ok with..not nuch affected when I suddenly realized that my Fitness First ID was also there! Shoot! That's 400 bucks in replacement fee.. I suddenly felt dejected that I felt like crying because I have to pay that fee. I was really hopeless in seeing my wallet ever again but lo and behold, someone found my wallet (a messenger)and surrendered it to China Bank who in return reported it to PS. What joy! I picked my wallet from the bank (which is by the way, BDO) and saw that everything is still there. I dont even have any accounts wth them) The messenger was not there so I was not able to personally thank him. I was planning to buy him and the manager some brownies or something but because I already reported all my cards lost, getting money is a bit hassle right now. Anycase, thanks to that messenger who has been so kind enough to return my wallet... God bless you! =)

Off to bed please!

What does your birth month say about you?

Take the quiz: "What does your birth month reveal about you?"

May
Stubborn and hard-hearted. Strong-willed and highly motivated. Sharp thoughts. Easily angered. Attracts others and loves attention. Deep feelings. Beautiful physically and mentally. Firm Standpoint. Needs no motivation. Easily consoled. Systematic (left brain). Loves to dream. Strong clairvoyance. Understanding. Sickness usually in the ear and neck. Good imagination. Good physical. Weak breathing. Loves literature and the arts. Loves traveling. Dislike being at home. Restless. Not having many children.Hardworking. High spirited. Spendthrift.



Thanks to Leane for this "insightful" link from her blog! :)

Waiting for THE ONE...

The One.

Aren't we all waiting for him/her to come to our lives and just sweep us off our feet?
Read this as a post in Friendster and I can't help but think how wonderful it feels to be oh so inlove!
So, guys read on and find out how to make your girl swoon and girls, you could actually improvise so you could sweeten up your relationship with your man....
As for me....HE has yet to come.... hopefully soon. :)

Tell her you think she's cool.
Tell her why you think she's so cool.
Smell her hair.
Pick her up and pretend you're going to throw her in the river;
she'll scream and fight you but secretly, she`ll love it.
Hold her hand and skip.
Hold her hand and run.
Just hold her hand.
Pick flowers from other people's gardens and give them to her.
Tell her she's pretty.
Let her pay if she wants to.
Introduce her to your friends as The coolest girl you know.
Sit in the park and talk to her.
JUST TALK TO HER.
Take her to the library
TAKE HER ANYWHERE.
Tell her dirty jokes.
TELL HER HAPPY STORIES.
TELL HER SAD STORIES.
TELL HER YOUR STORIES.
TELL HER ANYTHING
Tell her stupid jokes.
Write poems about her.
Just walk with her.
Throw pebbles at her window
When she starts swearing at you,...
tell her YOU LOVE HER.
Take her to shows of bands she's never heard of.
Hold her hand in the mosh pit.
Let her fall asleep in your arms.
Call her.
Call her back if she calls you.
Sing to her,no matter how bad you are.
Carve your names into a tree.
Get her mad, then kiss her.
Give her piggy-back rides.
Go see her band play even if they really suck,and tell her they were great.
Give her space if she needs it.
Push her on swings.
Stay up with her all night when shes sick.
Make up pet names for her,but cool ones, not sappy ones.
Teach her guitar.
Lend her your cds.
Write on her.
WRITE ABOUT HER.
Make her mixtapes.
Write her letters.
Take her to cool shops,and let her take you to even cooler ones.
Just hang out with her.
Listen to all the bands she mentions.
Don't tell her that her favorite bands suck.
When she's sad,hang out with her
or stay on the phone with her,even if she's not saying anything.
Buy her ice cream.
Let her take all the photos of you she wants.
Look into her eyes.
Slow dance with her,even if the music is fast.
TELL HER A SECRET.
Kiss her in the rain...
JUST KISS HER.
TRUST HER.
LOVE HER.
BE YOURSELF AROUND HER.
CHERISH HER
and when you fall in love with her tell her...
I LOVE U!

Sigh! :)

My Life In A Quickie!

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My Life in a Quickie:

*Death of Pope John Paul II

*Beach outing I missed last weekend,done the cheapest way to spend a Saturday through bonding with some of my batchmates from work (and scoring a free lunch along the way) and exercising my mind thru word games online...

* One place in my mind right now.....Shanghai, China.........(partly dreading,partly hoping, partly scared)

* Still confused about HIM...conflicting emotions....hate him most of the time but happy to see him, gave him the silent treatment, but can't stand to see him down and sad.... I'm tired of hoping that something can come out good between the two of us.So I just let it all go.....

*Moved to a new abode (which is kinda neat..the new house I mean!)

* Going broke...(longing for payday again!)

* Noticed that Im gaining weight, seriously considering enrolling in a gym, but mom says, why not go to a dermatologist to improve skin... have to make up my mind....for the meantime, restrain from overeating....

* Sitting in the back is not that fun anymore! :(

*A dad that is still missing in action

*A phone bill that amounted to 2,700 php because of a confusion about that 10/min call....note: make sure you have NDD before using...

*Beginning to like CSI and Queer Eye for the Straight Guy more and more....(love the FAb 5!)

*Almost forgot...American Idol too.....LOve Constantine Maroulis!

*Slowly isolating myslef from office society....(wanting to be alone)

* Kind of staring into space... this past few days...have this wound near the bridge of my nose......

*Reading an online version of John Grisham's The Last Juror which so far is entertaining

*Received this touching message from Jagurl, an officemate of mine. I seriously want to cry as i read her message.

*Spent the Saturday hanging out with my office buddies at Kat Cordova's house, playing old fashioned games like PANTS,Word Factory, english and tagalog versions where Astrobabe won the tagalog game,hands down! :), planned diabolical things to be done to a certain sup who made a bitchy scene about internet access on the floor, planned another outing, this time at Corregidor on April 30 (hope this will push through!).

Well, that was all that happened to me during the past week. Nothing special really. I'll just close this entry with this song by Hale.....I really liked it the first time I heard it, kinda striked a chord inside me, (?) and it was unpopular back then....but right now, everyone seems to be singing it, so there...............

Broken Sonnet

And now i concede
On the night of this fifteenth
song Of melancholy, of melancholy
And in this next line Ill say it all over again
That i love you, i love you
I dont care what they say I dont care what they do cause tonight ill leave my fears behind cause tonight ill be right at your side
Lie down right next to me Lie down right next to me
And i will never let go Will never let go
The clock on the tv says 8:39 pm Its the same, its the same
And in this next line Ill say it all over again
That i love you, i love you
I don't care what they sayI dont care what they do, cause tonight i’ll leave my fears behind cause tonight ill be right at your side
Lie down right next to me Lie down right next to me
And i will never let go Will never let go
Ill leave my fears behind cause tonight ill be right at your side.
Lie down right next to meLie down right next to me
And i will never let goWill never let go
But still i see the tears from your eyes
Maybe i am just not the one for you

What A Wonderful Thought!

Nothing doing... It's back to normal in my world right now. Going to work, doing what I have to do.Payday seems like oh so far away as my funds in my atm seem to dwindle with each passing day. I think I have just a few hundred in my account or something. Anyway, I am actually living on a budget right now. It's a plus factor that I am now able to restrain my appetite (yup I have to admit that I can have an appetite that can match a guy's), not to mention my urge to spend on other items that I really want to buy, (like a new pair of jeans or sneakers..I really want to get those!)

First things first.... My cousin, Gay, who I once considered as one of the closest persons to me, is about to get married to her boyfriend of 2 years (but she has only seen him for about 5 times only) this coming February. I have a feeling that the reason why she chose that date is because February is the date when they went steady (predictable!) Anyways, you may noticed again, the past tense on that description, we have a gap right now. It's sort of silly actually and I did not expect that kind of reaction from the situation that we were in that caused that rift. It actually began with our parents...my mom and her dad are siblings. You know how comparisons can actually spark conflicts and this is a classic example. Anyways, my mom and aunt were burning the phone lines these past days about the progress of the event and so far, the news is that the parents of the guy is yet to come for the traditional "pamamanhikan". I have nothing bad against marrying early (in fact I once wished that I will be married by the time I'm 24, but of course that can never be because,guess what, I am turning 24 this year!) but with how things are faring with my cousin's family right now, its not the right moment to get married. But that's her life of course. Just been thinking what might have been if we still have that closeness,would I make a difference in her decision? Probably yes. I would've told her to consider laying the wedding plans off for another year or two. Just enough time for her and her fiancee to get to know more of each other or at least maybe save money to for their future.... But again, Gay has her own life now and she has all the right in the world to decide for herself. Just hope that she will not end up regretting that decision someday.

On other things, my parents are considering moving to a new house maybe by the end of February. I am both looking forward to that but at the same time I am dreading the thought, too.I am comfortable with our house right now and it's accessible even. Sure,it's good that we will be moving to a new environment, probably a better house, but I really can't ignore the hassles of moving out like finding the right house in the first place, and then you have to pack all your things, then there's the problem of arranging all your furniture and things again.....whew! I've been there before and of course it's really tiring especially the arranging part.

I was just going through my file here at my office PC and I was able to unearth an email that was sent to me from last year...now I know you guys might have received or read this at one point of your life or another, but it's actually one of my fave creeds in life. And, you have to admit that at least one of these things can give you that feel good feeling...so here goes:

This is originally titled as 50 WONDERFUL THINGS but right now since I really desperately want to go home now (its sad of course that I am going home alone today!) I am going to narrow this to the first 25 WONDERFUL THINGS to be continued of course:

So Let's see which have you experienced so far:
1. Falling in love.> Need to ask why?

2. Laughing so hard your face hurts.> It really feels good afterwards.....

3. A hot shower.> Best when taken during the cold season or if you have aching joints or you're tired..

4. No lines at the supermarket> No more waiting....

5. A special glance.> especially if coming from that special person...or that cute guy/gal you're eyeing acrss the room...

6. Getting mail> As long it's from a friend and its good news...not a credit card bill or any
solicitation letters or even a ransom letter!

7. Taking a drive on a pretty road. > with the window down and you can feel the wind blowing in your face and hair.

8. Hearing your favorite song on the radio. > So you can sing along as loudly as you can....nevermind if you're out of tune or you keep missing the correct lyrics to the song.

9. Lying in bed listening to the rain outside.> So relaxing.....

10. Hot towels fresh out of the dryer. > love the clean feeling of fresh towels

11. Finding the sweater you want is on sale for half price.> Don't we all love a bargain?

12. Chocolate milkshake. (or vanilla!) (or strawberry) > one of my fave afternoon drinks...

13. A long distance phone call.> from a friend you have been missing

14. A bubble bath.> > again, it's relaxing and luxurious...

15. Giggling.>

16. A good conversation.> My fave thing.... nothing is more stimulating and more enjoyable than having someone good to talk to

17 The beach> Love the breeze and the scenery.

18. Finding a 20 note in your coat from last winter.> extra money is extra money....

19. Laughing at yourself.> this is one thing that I just learned lately to appreciate..it's good to sometimes laugh at yourself especially when youv have done something that is embarrassing...

20. Midnight phone calls that last for hours.> i really miss this one...there's something different if you're talking to someone and its midnight...something like "all around us, thewhole city is sleeping....and yet here we are, talking the night away!"

21. Running through sprinklers.> Like letting your hair down and just being carefree...

22. Laughing for absolutely no reason at all. > you have to be careful to where you'll be doing this though! Would not want to get all those weird looks.... but then again, who cares!

23. Having someone tell you that you're beautiful.> Something of a ego booster...

24. Laughing at an inside joke.> like you have a big secret that only a few of you knows about

25. Friends.> of course, no man is an island..........

Catching up..

Happy new year! New beginnings, new hopes! It has been a while since I last updated this blogsite because I had an attack of laziness and writer's block (deadly combination!). In any case, the new year wasn't that eventful for me. I missed the fireworks because I was sleeping away. But I did manged to wake up 3 minutes before the new year rang in.
Anyways, what's up with me? Nothing much. Back to normal again. No more holidays to look forward to. However,my cat, Garfield died today. (sob!sob!) Poor cat. He lived a good life.
5 years old. It's ok. I still have my favorite cat with me, Polgosa (that's Garfield's mom by the way!).

At work, I was being tasked to coach a colleague to help her improve her QA scores. The pressure's on because she has two weeks to pass her QA. I listened to her calls the other day, and she needs help polishing her knowledge about some account policies and procedures. So far, she hasn't been QAed yet, so I am hoping for the best. New year, new career? well that's one of things that has been plaguing my mind. Suddenly, I had this urge to try out new career paths and that means leaving my comfort zone at PeopleSupport. To tell you honestly, I am content right now where I am. Great pay, minimal tasks, surrounded by people I enjoy being with.... It's reallly a bit difficult to give that up and I would love to just let it be that way just a bit longer. My colleagues know that I'll be leaving around Feb or MArch. So, I have to make up my mind soon.
Healthwise, my ears are aching. Seems like I was overpoking my ears and it's a bit painful to lean my head on a certain way. It is a bit difficult to find a comfortable way of sleeping too. Anyways, just been to the doctor and that curt doctor just examined me for i think 2 minutes (and I waited for my turn for like 30 minutes!) and he just gave me a prescription for this ointment and told me to see him in one week. Goodluck! Can I just ask for a new doctor?

On a more personal note, congratulations to me because I have been officially inlove again! As you know, it has been almost two years since I have felt that feeling....you know, finding yoursef smiling for no reason at all, happily anticipating, having that kilig feeling everytime you think of that person, having that connection...(ewww...!) But again it's HAVE BEEN, meaning past tense. That giddy feeling only lasted for a grand total of 2 days. I actually saw it coming and to hell with it, I let myself into the feeling. I can't believe I let myself be vulnerable again. You see, I just learned recently that I am now one of those people who are afraid to commit. Me? The hopeless romantic (secretly of course!) who in highschool, used to be puzzled why there are certain people who seemed weary to be attatched to someone they love. Or me at college, who thought that I'm going to have that first and last type of relationship. Well, the realization began when I was filling out this survey thingy on friendster and there was this question that goes, Are you afraid to commit? I found myself hesitating to put in NO. Then, i began to think, can I go through another situation where I'm going to allow someone to have that much hold on me? Not anymore. So I put in YES.So, there I was, really contemplating about the sudden change on how I view commitments in general, and after a few days, I found myself giving in to the flow of feelings, of letting that familiar, sweet feeling take over my senses. It did felt good and there was this sort of euphoria with it. I began to have those memories again on what it felt having a certain special someone.How good it feels to have an eye on someone who you have strong feelings for. I then found myself thinking what and how would it be like if it would be with HIM. (Don't wonder who HE is, I won't tell!) Then at that one act (and I would not disclose any other details) the illusion was shattered. Hmp..talk about a short lived affair. Sigh, it is really hard to find a good man these days. All the good ones are already taken. You know, the type which you can take home to meet your parents and you wouldn't hear 5 reasons why they (along with the rest of your relatives) think that you should consider looking for another. I've seen my friends cry over some unworthy guys, and in some cases, over hopeless relationships.With that, doubled with the terrible breakup (sob!sob!) I've been through, I am now weary entering a relationship where I know I have to risk something to make it work. Well, some good things never lasts! I think I'll just write more about that topic next time! I know a lot of people do take notice if topic will be purely on love, so till now, gotta go! :)