Am I or Am I Not?

If I'm not in love with you
What is this I'm going through, tonight?
And if this heart is lying
Then what should I believe in?
Why do I go crazy?
Every time I think about you baby
Why else do I want you like I do?
If I'm not in love with you

And if I don't need your touch
Why do I miss you so much, tonight?
If it's just infatuation
Then why is my heart aching
To hold you forever
Give a part of me I thought I'd never
Give again to someone I could lose
If I'm not in love with you

Oh, why in every fantasy
Do I feel your arms embracing me?
Like lovers lost in sweet desire
And why in dreams do I surrender
Like a little baby
How do I explain this feeling?
Someone tell me

If I'm not in love with you
What is this I'm going through, tonight?
And if this heart is lying
Then what should I believe in?
Why do I go crazy?
Every time I think about you baby
Why else do I want you like I do...

In a Sad State

I am bit depressed and torn right now.. How come the person who I expected to be right there for me was actually the one who let me down??

I'm getting a bit tired and sad right now of all the things that have been happening in my life right now.. I'm getting a bit lost. Right now, what I would like is something that is a sure thing for a change... not something that I would always second guess or figure out.

I feel that some people have taken me granted and I don't really want to feel that I am being unappreciated anymore.

Doubting Thomas

I first heard it from my cousin... that the people you might mingle with at the workplace aren't necessarily your friends. His reason? It's because it's just that you don't have any choice. Circumstances is forcing you to socialize, to be with them in order to survive the workplace. It's just like the text message that Alvin D. sent me...it's part hypocrisy and part self-interest.

After the Long Hiatus

I was considering closing this blog site of mine. Well... here I am writing again... A lot of things are going on my mind these past few days..I came so close to resigning..again..this must be the nth time and I really don't know anymore how and to what reason I'll probably be resigning for real.. I am now living the normal life..meaning that I get to wake up in the morning..daytime if you will, to go to work like any other normal being..and go home at night, with rush hour traffic and all. I was assigned to help out the new batch of reps who will be coming in and the training schedule was set on a morning. Anyway, so here I am.. living the normal life for the next 4 days or so..

Right now, I am excited about the trip that me and the Troopers will make this coming April. We'll be going to Cebu and Bohol..really can't wait, although, I was originally planning a vacation all by myself..you know to explore and maybe have some time to think about everything in my life...all by myself. Looks like I have to put aside the idea for the meantime.