I came across one of my fave movies of all time at cable tv while I was eating my lunch at home. I was actually looking forward in watching a replay of Desperate Housewives (which I am becoming a fan) but while browsing through the channels, I suddenly saw Bridget Jones' Diary showing on Star Movies that I decided that I could just go over from one channel to the other just to see Mark Darcy tell Bridget that he likes her just the way she is....(then I remembered, "shucks, I actually have a dvd of that movie!")
Yup, just the way she is....that's one of the lines that anyone could possibly want to hear from somebody. Imagine, someone who still accepts and love you (aside from a blood relative) despite the flaws in your being. I could not help but smile while I watched that scene where Mark Darcy awkwardly tells Bridget those lines in the movie. Sigh!
The romantic side of me (yes, the one that I am trying to repress badly) suddenly came up with the question "when will I ever hear those words again from a particular someone" (aside from friends who of course will give out a biased answer..) Someone who probably still likes me inspite the fact that I am sometimes moody, or I say the most absurd things, or I am not that well-endowed... basically who will accept me just the way I am, good and bad. That's all...I just wanted to say that out. :)
*****
I've been un-dramatized. (if ever there is such a word!) I've done some careful thinking about the things that transpired during that topsy turvy spell in my life. Kaka and I are not in speaking terms yet. Someday, maybe we will be friends again. But I will always treasure of course the times that I spent with him. Life must go on for me, friends or no friends.. Harbouring all those negative energies will do me no good in the long run. If I continued with that kind of attitude, moping and pouting (as one friend pointed out), I might end up losing more and that made me do a double take on how I view things in my life.
With that I would just end up this entry with this bit:
Someone like You
I've been searching a long time
For someone exactly like you
I've been travelling all around the world
Waiting for you to come through
Someone like you
You make it all worthwhile
Someone like you
Keeps me satisfied
Someone exactly like.. you
I've travelin a hard road
Lookin for someone exactly like you
I've been carrying my heavy load
Waiting for the light to come shining through
I been doing some soul searching..
To find out where your at
I've been up and down the highway
In all kinds of foreign lands
But someone like you
You make it all worthwhile
Someone like you
Keep me satisfied
Just like you babe
I have been all around the world
Marching to the beat of a different drum
But just lately I've realised
Baby the best is yet to come
Someone like you
You make it all worthwhile
Someone like you
Keep me satisfied
Someone like you
Make it all worthwhile
Someone like you
Keep me satisfied (Just like you)
Someone exactly like you
Someone
For the one who will like me..just the way I am. ;)
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Thursday, August 18, 2005
Saturday, August 13, 2005
Drama Queen
I have not updated my blog for a while... A lot of things happend in a span of 2 or (is it already 3?) weeks.
Not so good things. Crying and moping seems a theme for me during those times and I'm still at awe how my life became all topsy-turvy all of a sudden...
I really want to of course apologize to my office friends who I somehow let down at the last gimmick that was supposed to cheer me up. I really wanted to go but then circumstances prevented me from doing so. Even though I already apologized, I feel things are not really the same anymore. Especially with Kaka...
Somehow, he is the only one who seem to be so mad at me after that. I confronted him about that matter the other day, and I feel that I was splashed with icy water on my face with what he said...
"Naiinis ako sa'yo, pag nakikita ko si Alex, kahit wala siyang kasalanan, naiinis na rin ako sa kanya... lalo na pag nakita ko na kayong tatlo nina Camit, lalo lang ako naiinis!"
"Wala siyang gusto sa yo!"
"Pwede pa naman tayo magusap pero hindi na katulad ng dati."
Ouch!
First of all,I came to discuss and to make ammends with what happened between the two of us, not to ask for his opinion with whatever it is going on with me and Alex. But Kaka really had to bring that up.
Kaka is one of the few people who I can really talk to and who listens. He is such a sweet friend and even spent 200 bucks to buy me flowers. Much as I want to patch things out with him, I already did my part. If he really can't find it in his heart to let bygones be bygones, then I guess I have to leave it to time to heal things between us.
I really don't wish to elaborate about the statements Kaka blurted out. Especially why he blurted those out. A lot of people keep egging me that I was being replaced...or whatever...! It is really starting to be a bit annoying. It means that I was being compared to the other girl. Haughty as I may seem to be, but I really have to say... We are not in the same level! Anyhoo, it's Tian's life. It's not that we have a thing going on between us. We're just friends.
I just don't care anymore.
I was so close at submitting my resignation letter because of all those things. I just feel that there is really no reason to stay anymore. It's bound to happen anyway right? Better to be the first one to go. I have a lot of job offers actually, but again, circumstances prevented me from doing so.
I am thankful that there are still a few people at work who are still here for me no matter how indiyanera I am. Rod, who seems to be my only friend amongst the group and who never seems to get tired of hearing my sob stories. Carmela, of course. To my supfriend, Kit. I will be putting off my resignation for the meantime for you. And.... Alex...even if he's still annoying me because of his endless pangiinis at times and clueless as he is, the reason why this rift started, still puts up with my negative aura, is still there waiting for 3 hours until my shift ends. Maybe I have to tell him not to wait for me anymore. He does not get enough sleep because he waits for me everyday, and sometimes gets home around 1pm. I really appreciate what he's doing but still I don't know why he does that. 3 hours is 3 hours. I'm scared to ask of course. I guess it will be one of those things that I will never get to know. At least until I get the guts to ask him. I just really wish that he can be a bit nicer though.
So much drama! It really makes me want to go to church.
Not so good things. Crying and moping seems a theme for me during those times and I'm still at awe how my life became all topsy-turvy all of a sudden...
I really want to of course apologize to my office friends who I somehow let down at the last gimmick that was supposed to cheer me up. I really wanted to go but then circumstances prevented me from doing so. Even though I already apologized, I feel things are not really the same anymore. Especially with Kaka...
Somehow, he is the only one who seem to be so mad at me after that. I confronted him about that matter the other day, and I feel that I was splashed with icy water on my face with what he said...
"Naiinis ako sa'yo, pag nakikita ko si Alex, kahit wala siyang kasalanan, naiinis na rin ako sa kanya... lalo na pag nakita ko na kayong tatlo nina Camit, lalo lang ako naiinis!"
"Wala siyang gusto sa yo!"
"Pwede pa naman tayo magusap pero hindi na katulad ng dati."
Ouch!
First of all,I came to discuss and to make ammends with what happened between the two of us, not to ask for his opinion with whatever it is going on with me and Alex. But Kaka really had to bring that up.
Kaka is one of the few people who I can really talk to and who listens. He is such a sweet friend and even spent 200 bucks to buy me flowers. Much as I want to patch things out with him, I already did my part. If he really can't find it in his heart to let bygones be bygones, then I guess I have to leave it to time to heal things between us.
I really don't wish to elaborate about the statements Kaka blurted out. Especially why he blurted those out. A lot of people keep egging me that I was being replaced...or whatever...! It is really starting to be a bit annoying. It means that I was being compared to the other girl. Haughty as I may seem to be, but I really have to say... We are not in the same level! Anyhoo, it's Tian's life. It's not that we have a thing going on between us. We're just friends.
I just don't care anymore.
I was so close at submitting my resignation letter because of all those things. I just feel that there is really no reason to stay anymore. It's bound to happen anyway right? Better to be the first one to go. I have a lot of job offers actually, but again, circumstances prevented me from doing so.
I am thankful that there are still a few people at work who are still here for me no matter how indiyanera I am. Rod, who seems to be my only friend amongst the group and who never seems to get tired of hearing my sob stories. Carmela, of course. To my supfriend, Kit. I will be putting off my resignation for the meantime for you. And.... Alex...even if he's still annoying me because of his endless pangiinis at times and clueless as he is, the reason why this rift started, still puts up with my negative aura, is still there waiting for 3 hours until my shift ends. Maybe I have to tell him not to wait for me anymore. He does not get enough sleep because he waits for me everyday, and sometimes gets home around 1pm. I really appreciate what he's doing but still I don't know why he does that. 3 hours is 3 hours. I'm scared to ask of course. I guess it will be one of those things that I will never get to know. At least until I get the guts to ask him. I just really wish that he can be a bit nicer though.
So much drama! It really makes me want to go to church.
Saturday, July 16, 2005
Over and Over again....!
It's Monday early morn as I am composing this entry....3 am in fact... I am at home, with Hale's The day you said goodnight playing on the radio. Haven't much time to write an entry anymore at work since becoming an ATL means that you have to be focused only on work related stuff in all your times being in meeting status the whole shift. In anycase, let me just tell you what happend for the past few weeks...
We had this party last July 4 to celebrate our team's nth time of passing QA. I was one of those who were awarded because of having one of the most number of passing QA marks and i won a gift certificate of 500 for that. (I thought I will never get one of those things!) I got to join a game with Alex the lion as my partner, for Break the Egg, and we won of course! Matching picture frames to boot! See our picture below:
A pair of good-looking Winners! Hehehe! :)
Prior to the party by the way, I went to this agency that where I applied a job for Singapore. I was made to take another set of exams. I did not made it. Bummer! I did not really set my heart on it, but it is kinda disappointing. I was thinking of the salary..it was actually enough for me to save for my future. But then again, God must have a different plan for me. But there is another opening however. Although, there is another opening for the cabin crew at Saudia. I was thinking of applying. I think I will give it a go.
Sigh! I have this habit of falling asleep early and then waking up around 2 or 3 in the morning.I feel contented and dreamy at this moment. The night is so calm and everything is just so quiet outside. Mom is already sleeping. I wonder what he's doing at this moment....Must be sleeping....Right before I fell asleep, I was toying with my mobile phone, browsing through the pictures that were stored there. I came across his picture. My mind began to wander....I suddenly scrolled to options and decided to set his picture as wallpaper for my phone. I smiled to myself.... and suddenly blurted out "Uy, bagay!" Wish I could really legally keep it that way,but of course, it's all just in my imagiantion. It's been more than 2 years now since I was in a relationship. Although, it really does not bother me that I am single now, but it would sure be wonderful to be in one again. Maybe I would be destined to be an old maid. I am certainly seeing a lot right now. It's already Saturday by the way, and my shift ended early. I was on swap with Kat Cordova and we're just passing the time away since Techy Rod will be treating us to lunch at Glorietta to celebrate his birthday. It was my sister's birthday as well last July 13 and I could not think of the perfect gift to give...not until yesterday.... Hehehe! I gave her this pair of flat shoes I bought the other night at Baclaran. When I got home, both my mom and my sister commented that the shoes were ugly...(Hmp! It was kinda cute when I bought it....) My sister even said that my feet look dirty on it so I made her try it on so I can have a clear idea what it looked like. It look kinda cute on her feet and the idea dawned to me that I would just then give the shoes to her as my birthday gift. I only wore it once anyways..... She stucked out her tongue at me to show her protest... Well, I am not kidding...but maybe as a consolation, I would add something, like a cologne or such...
I am actually at the training room right now, alone. I love that it's quiet here and I can gather my thoughts without the distraction. Sure, it's a bit lonley and literally, cold...that my lips are chapping right now....but still, I love the time alone to myself...
Now, I have to rush off because I really need to go to the bathroom...bad! Ciao!
P.S. Thanks to Eryll Arroza for the pics!
We had this party last July 4 to celebrate our team's nth time of passing QA. I was one of those who were awarded because of having one of the most number of passing QA marks and i won a gift certificate of 500 for that. (I thought I will never get one of those things!) I got to join a game with Alex the lion as my partner, for Break the Egg, and we won of course! Matching picture frames to boot! See our picture below:
A pair of good-looking Winners! Hehehe! :)
Prior to the party by the way, I went to this agency that where I applied a job for Singapore. I was made to take another set of exams. I did not made it. Bummer! I did not really set my heart on it, but it is kinda disappointing. I was thinking of the salary..it was actually enough for me to save for my future. But then again, God must have a different plan for me. But there is another opening however. Although, there is another opening for the cabin crew at Saudia. I was thinking of applying. I think I will give it a go.
Sigh! I have this habit of falling asleep early and then waking up around 2 or 3 in the morning.I feel contented and dreamy at this moment. The night is so calm and everything is just so quiet outside. Mom is already sleeping. I wonder what he's doing at this moment....Must be sleeping....Right before I fell asleep, I was toying with my mobile phone, browsing through the pictures that were stored there. I came across his picture. My mind began to wander....I suddenly scrolled to options and decided to set his picture as wallpaper for my phone. I smiled to myself.... and suddenly blurted out "Uy, bagay!" Wish I could really legally keep it that way,but of course, it's all just in my imagiantion. It's been more than 2 years now since I was in a relationship. Although, it really does not bother me that I am single now, but it would sure be wonderful to be in one again. Maybe I would be destined to be an old maid. I am certainly seeing a lot right now. It's already Saturday by the way, and my shift ended early. I was on swap with Kat Cordova and we're just passing the time away since Techy Rod will be treating us to lunch at Glorietta to celebrate his birthday. It was my sister's birthday as well last July 13 and I could not think of the perfect gift to give...not until yesterday.... Hehehe! I gave her this pair of flat shoes I bought the other night at Baclaran. When I got home, both my mom and my sister commented that the shoes were ugly...(Hmp! It was kinda cute when I bought it....) My sister even said that my feet look dirty on it so I made her try it on so I can have a clear idea what it looked like. It look kinda cute on her feet and the idea dawned to me that I would just then give the shoes to her as my birthday gift. I only wore it once anyways..... She stucked out her tongue at me to show her protest... Well, I am not kidding...but maybe as a consolation, I would add something, like a cologne or such...
I am actually at the training room right now, alone. I love that it's quiet here and I can gather my thoughts without the distraction. Sure, it's a bit lonley and literally, cold...that my lips are chapping right now....but still, I love the time alone to myself...
Now, I have to rush off because I really need to go to the bathroom...bad! Ciao!
P.S. Thanks to Eryll Arroza for the pics!
Tuesday, June 28, 2005
What does your birth month say about you?
Take the quiz: "What does your birth month reveal about you?"
May
Stubborn and hard-hearted. Strong-willed and highly motivated. Sharp thoughts. Easily angered. Attracts others and loves attention. Deep feelings. Beautiful physically and mentally. Firm Standpoint. Needs no motivation. Easily consoled. Systematic (left brain). Loves to dream. Strong clairvoyance. Understanding. Sickness usually in the ear and neck. Good imagination. Good physical. Weak breathing. Loves literature and the arts. Loves traveling. Dislike being at home. Restless. Not having many children.Hardworking. High spirited. Spendthrift.
Thanks to Leane for this "insightful" link from her blog! :)
May
Stubborn and hard-hearted. Strong-willed and highly motivated. Sharp thoughts. Easily angered. Attracts others and loves attention. Deep feelings. Beautiful physically and mentally. Firm Standpoint. Needs no motivation. Easily consoled. Systematic (left brain). Loves to dream. Strong clairvoyance. Understanding. Sickness usually in the ear and neck. Good imagination. Good physical. Weak breathing. Loves literature and the arts. Loves traveling. Dislike being at home. Restless. Not having many children.Hardworking. High spirited. Spendthrift.
Thanks to Leane for this "insightful" link from her blog! :)
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