And I thought the weekend will never come!

Oh yes.. and it was such a long week for me! Working for 6 days straight with only a day's rest can certainly seem like you've been coming to and from the office over and over again - like a melancholic routine! Gray skies ahead as the metro was burdened with unpredictable heavy rain showers and wind - a deadly combination as I hear people in a coughing and sneezing fit. Flu season everyone!

As I look back and remember the memories of the past week, it seems that I was trying to recall at least 2 weeks worth of memories. Now, let's see..

• I learned that my Uncle (my mom's sister's husband) who I will name as Uncle Piding was confined in the ICU via a Facebook post from my nephew. (ah, the power of the social networking!)
• Frenzy at work trying to cope up with sick staff members, the heavy call volume, motivating staff members while finishing up their appraisals, monitoring and coaching and dealing with deadlines and mild annoyance from some of the co-workers
• More frenzy from work..
• Uncle Piding's health turned for the worst. Mom called while I was on my way to work - Uncle was near his deathbed, texted my cousin and learned that he was on a coma. made arrangements with him to drop by the hospital after my monitoring schedule. received text from my cousin a few hours later that he already passed away. ;( Was in shock and found myself having a hard time focusing at work.
• Had a hard time sleeping. Bothered by something.
• Went to my Uncle's wake - made possible by swapping for a late schedule. saw my Ate Ethel first - after more than 15 years, and hugged her. Hugged my Kuya Roy and greeted my other cousins. Got teary eyed and was a bit conscious that my tears will fall down so I'm mighty glad that I saw my cousin's girlfriend and got into a conversation with her to distract me from crying. Paid my respects by taking a glimpse of his remains. He looked peaceful at least. Not really emancipated. His long thumbnail still untrimmed. Had to leave 20 minutes after getting there for work. Sigh! It's going to be a long cab ride to work..
• Finished Friday's shift with a relief! Was happy to learn that my dearest friend from work - Carly has passed her interview with a prospective new employer and is just waiting for her job offer. Was a bit jealous at first, but hey, I'm still happy 'coz she has the better work ethics between the 2 of us (even though I have the experience). I know she will be a good fit for the manager post! :) Bonded, laughed and whined about the shittiness at work - our fave past time plus planned her new image for her new work over brunch.
• Went home late (late for me is like 4 hours past my end shift time which was 6:30PM ET that day. I went home around 11pm ET) and slept like a log for 16 hours hours after texting Mr. A. about my day. Woke up and whoa - it's start of a new week again and it's still raining! Another wet week ahead? Happy Sunday!
  
  
  

With the passing of Uncle Piding, I want to honor him by giving thanks for all the help that he has given - though I was not really that close to him, He was a steady solid character in my life - someone that I'm used to seeing and knowing that he should always be there during special occasions and family gatherings. I will certainly miss your brooding presence and mischievous old Uncle quips. I do pray that your soul will find eternal peace with our Creator. To the Tolentino Family, my sincerest condolences.

I'm Back and Toothless!

I know I havent updated my blog for quite sometime now- ok, for a really long time. I put the blame on life. As they say, life can sometimes get in the way of things.. and in my case, writing. A lot has happened to me between my last post and now. Transferred to a new workplace, met new people, lost contact with some, got in touch with long lost ones, got myself in a relationship (haha! at last!), travelled more, developed some new prospects, aged (ack!).. I'll be backtracking everything as we go along. But now, I'm glad I'm finally back and ready to write!

Fast forward to now: I took the liberty of extending my 4th of July official company day off by filing for vacation leaves for thursday and friday! So that leaves me with a total of 5 glorious days away from work! What to do? Well, I was contemplating in going to a dermatologist for a procedure (and no, and its not for surgery!) to address my scars, but as I was concerned about the downtime and it has also been raining heavily for the past week, I found myself on a Friday, setting up a dental appointment instead. Since I transferred away from the mecca of medical practitioners I call Medical Plaza where I usually have my dental work done, I find it hard to find the time and a new clinic to go to. Besides, I could not even remember the last time I had my dental cleaning- a year ago or 2 years ago? Yikes! So I decided to find one that my medical card, Intellicare, covers. I found one in BF Homes, JP Romero Dental Clinic. The receptionist who answered my phone call was pleasant and friendly enough and I scheduled myself for a 4pm appointment. The place is just along Aguirre Avenue, but it slipped my mind that Aguirre Avenue stretches all the way to other side of BF. I forgot to ask for a landmark for their office. I did a quick check via Google maps but I still miscalculated the distance ended up walking a few blocks more to reach their office. I got there a little past 4 but they quickly accommodated me. After filling out some forms and doing some verification for my dental coverage, I was lead and made comfortable in the dental chair. As I waited for my dentist, I took a quick look and liked what I saw so far. Their equipment looks modern and the overall area where the procedures are being done were clean. There was even a monitor above me in which I silently hoped that I my mouth will not be magnified through that (Thank goodness it was not. Probably they use it for more interesting and major cases. Whew!). I also notice that even the water that was already laid out for me to gargle had a bluish tint to it. I later found out that it was mixed with probably Colgate Plax which earned them plus point for me as this is the first time that I came across a dental office who had thought of this. My dentist was Dr. Flan Thomas - who looks young but very able and was nice enough to explain and answer my questions. She also has an assistant who listed each of my tooth's condition as she dictates it to him one by one. Aside from having my teeth cleaned, I decided to have both of my impacted teeth extracted. I have been putting it aside for the longest time since it was always recommended that one should have complete hours of sleep prior the procedure and now is the perfect time to do it. Dr. Flan asked me if I was prepared for it and I said yes for both as not to worry about it in the future. Though what I have to worry about after is whether I'm ready to have braces which is going to be another story. So I had my cleaning first and I found myself getting more tensed as she finishes the procedure. The last time I had an extraction was when I was 7 years old for my rotten set of milk teeth. The horror stories about patients getting an infection or overdosing from anesthesia flooded into my mind. So I just said a little prayer in my mind and turned back to looking at the blank lcd monitor above me. At least I'm in good hands. Dr. Flan and her assistant were very gentle and professional though it still hurt a little bit especially when she was extracting the upper impacted tooth in which she even gave me another dose of anesthesia. I winced and was almost telling myself not to faint as I heard my tooth cracking like cracker nuts as she pulled away. I can still hear the cracking sound in my head until now. Hahaha!


And just like that, it was over. Yey, I survived! The good doctor gave me a prescription of meds and some general reminders like no to hot, spicy and seafood based food for the next 2 days. I can only eat and drink cold or room temperature, soft food and drinks. I'm scheduled to be back to have my filling next Saturday since I get it with my coverage with Intellicare. It was also good that the dental office gives discounts as well to card holders so I think I may be sticking with this one. Their braces though cost more - around 60k-80K. I might have to do a little more thinking and planning for that.


All in all, I highly recommend their clinic and I'm happy they made me comfortable throughout the procedure.


For those interested to check JP Romero Dental Clinic, you may visit them at 225 Evangelista Bldg. Phase II, Aguirre Avenue, BF Homes, Paranaque (in front of Central Boy Barbecue and Pan de Manila). You may also call: 02-825 8642.

Blogging with a Purpose

I know I haven't blogged for the longest time. With my busy schedule managing and serving as a psychologist, secretary,coach, teacher, advisor, mediator and whatever role my job needs to the 12 or more people I manage everyday , plus the fact that blogspot requires one to log in with a gmail account..which I do have ,but for the love of me, I always seem to forget what username I have for it, I had totally forgotten to update my page.. until now ofcourse.

It started with Mr. A telling me that he signed up to start a whole new "public blog". I was amused upon hearing about it since this means that I will be able to know "superficially" what goes on that head of his, even though I really don't need a blog to know about it. With that, I decided to pay my own li'l spot a visit, without the intentions of updating it - just want to look around, read the things I have written in the past... Though, I did updated the links and my profile picture. I kept on seeing that picture of me lying sideways and I decided to finally give it a rest and upload a different one with more - uhm.. sophistication? Hehe!

Anyways, its not until I came across each entry that I had written over the years that I have noticed that there are actual comments left by actual readers that I never knew I had. I mean, back then, the people who usually read my blog are my friends and some relatives ( and I got into trouble because of it! that's a different story though!)..people I knew, but right now, I'm seeing that there are other people who are actually responding to the silly things I'm writing here and who are able to relate to what I'm writing about. I glanced over the dates on when the comments were posted and the latest one I've seen was just last year. I immediately checked the comment settings on my blog and have found out that I haven't turned that feature on where they'll send you a notification that someone has left a comment on my page. Drats! So now, dear readers, I already have turned it on so I'll be able to respond in a timely manner.

So there you go, a blog with a purpose. It's good to know that you can certainly reach out to a lot of people in your own li'l way. May it be to inform, share, or just rant, I'm sure that there will be someone who would just feel the same way or will be gaining insight from my everyday mishaps. With this, I'll continue to share my thoughts, stories and anecdotes constantly...just don't tell Mr. A about it!

I'm back! ☺

Pre-Valentine Mush

♥ Its the Love Month, Baby! ♥

So what a way to get into the jitterbug-toe-curling-deep-sighing-takes-your-breath-away mood than to share a classic tale of one of everyone's favorite cliche topic : Soulmates.. (tale also includes references on gays, lebians and the arts..) I found this post during one of those rare times where I get to surf non related work sites in the middle of the night and when I came across it, I suddenly realized that Valentine's Day is definitely around the corner. So..before I have to write all other kinds of stuff to ruin the mood (I'll save that for later on this week.. hehe..) Let me just tell you all about the Myth of Love:

Do you ever wonder if you really have a soulmate?
Do you ever wonder why there are gays and lesbians?
Don't you ever wonder why some people love their same sex?
Do you ever wonder why some people love their opposite sex?
And do you ever wonder why these love are indestructible?
Why do most people seem to cannot live without someone to love?
And finally, why is it that people do not know what they have until it is gone?

It was said that before, in the origin of times, there were three sexes;male, female, and androgyne.

Original humans do not look like how we humans look today. Humans before were said to be twice of each person now, with two heads, two pair of eyes, two pair of lips, four hands, four feet, two bodies, two hearts, and of course two genitals.

Then, if the person has two vaginas, that is a female. If the person has two penis, that is a male person. If the person has both the two different organs, a vagina and a penis, then that person is an androgyne.

They said that androgynes were the most beautiful people among all because they have mostly the best features and characteristics of both the male and the female.

Because these people dream of being in heaven, even if they already have the heavens in their selves, they want to experience it even for just a little while.

And so they climbed to Mount Olympus. Zeus got furious upon seeing the people going up the mountain. He said, “How dare these immortals climb our wondrous world? And to think I'd let them experience it! Especially now that they do not cherish what they have!!!” He got so mad that he used his lightning bolts to cut each person in half to make them weaker enough so as not to continue on climbing.

The God of Healers healed the wounds of the people cut in half. And from then on, everyone started to look out for their pair the moment they got down from the mountains.This is why there is the term soulmates. Their bodies, in which their souls rest, used to be one. Therefore soulmates.

They said that this is also the reason why there are people who love their same sex, the gays and lesbians. They are the males and females before. And this also explains why gays are creative, because they are both males before, they tend to concentrate on what they lack. The same thing for lesbians. Because they are both females before, they tend to be strong as not to be underestimated.

Androgynes would be equal to male and female lovers. That is why nowadays these couples are the most acceptable, stronger, and the most beautiful among all partners, they have the strength of both males and females.

Lovers nowadays, whether gay, lesbian, or male and female couples, are indestructible because they are the pairs before. They are really meant to be.

This myth also explains why it is natural for people to just realize the value of the people they love only when they are about to be gone or are already gone. Because this happened even before, and we become weaker without our pair. We realize that we need them, truly love them, and that together, we are stronger.

This is also why we kiss. We always try to find the lips wherein ours will fit well.

This is also why we like to hold hands with the one we love, to find out if the spaces between their fingers are the spaces where ours used to lay.

And finally, this is why we always find someone to love. We always want to complete ourselves... Because we need the strength of the one we love in order to go on with the hardships of life... we need to fill in a missing space... and most of all, because we used to have two hearts. We need to find the other one.


All together now.. Awwww..

May everyone have that chance to find their missing halves.

My 2008 in Calendar Moments: The 2nd Half of the Year

Alrighty.. so here's part 2 of my year 2008 Calendar Moments based on how I remembered those memories.. I know this recollection is a bit too late, I actually had this composed a long time ago.. couldn't find the time to post it really.. so here goes:



July- Spent the day in Jayson’s pad with inkie and luvkosileah with Mr. A in tow. Saw some snippets of my very first rompy video. Getting bored and self pitying over my orphaned status at work. Had an argument over a laptop which led me to slam down the phone but ended up seeing a back to back movie, a dinner charged to a credit card and being vulnerable by opening up to things until the wee hours of the morning over affordable iced coffees that lead me to understand him better .
Celebrated Cornkernel’s birthday by going to Rockwell, local stargazing, and watching The Dark Knight – a movie which we sat through the entire 2 hour run despite the nagging calls of nature.



August – got hooked into Twilight. Was reading an online copy of it while chatting with Mr. A via ym not knowing that a few hours after wards, I will get one of the most devastating phone calls of my life. I remember my mom waking me up, panic in her voice saying that someone from SOCO was on the phone about a certain Rue Ann.
My mom was already scared since she knows that SOCO is synonymous with bad news. I brushed the idea off and walked over the phone thinking that Jaggy might just be stranded somewhere. I was wrong. Jaggy was found murdered somewhere in a place I’ve never heard of and I was the first one to know about it. With that triggered the series of events that until now,are still vivid in my mind. . I remember speaking with the officer on the other line asking him if this was a scam or a joke. I remember Inkie calling me on my cellphone right after putting the phone down, like it was on queue of a next act telling me that Jaggy’s workmates are texting her because Jaggy didn’t show up for work. I remember calling Mr. A about it and suddenly crying and asking him to accompany me since my mom doesn’t want me to go to the police station alone. I remember calling Eryll about it and thinking how could I explain the reason why I needed her help in getting in touch with her relatives in far away Gen San. The travel to the ayala mrt station, crying along the way. Was thinking if all of it was just a bad dream. Also remembered if we should break the news to Katqt since it dawned to me that it was her birthday on that same day too. Well, we won’t certainly forget her birthday anymore. Saw the purpose of the freedom in my work schedule during that time since I was able to help out with the things that needs to be fixed during that tragedy. Maybe that’s the real reason why I remained a floating employee. All of us had sacrficed something during this moment: Family, Time, work, career opportunities. Made me appreciate life and the people around me even more. Was sleepless during the entire wake. Got into a row with a company lawyer and a wannabe manager. More tears and a few fears during the aftermath. We will certainly miss her forever.
Back to work, got into trouble with Mark of Helpdesk involving my pc files getting into a restricted account’s pc. Ended up sending apology emails to Mr. A’s supervisor and one of the TM’s in my former account. Lost a few more sleep over that too since I was worried that Mr. A would get a warning for that. Which luckily, he didn’t.


September - Still the highest paid tambay with night differential to boot.
Celebrated the monumental 5 year mark in PS where I finally got
my Kenneth Cole watch.
Getting bored but still entertained with my odesk job and my seatmate, trainer Socki. There’s still Mr. A ofcourse, who always bombards me with text messages and calls as to where the heck am I at past 11pm. Sinisterbucks really did a small favor for me which I will be forever thankful for. Mr. A flew to Singapore , leaving me to catch up on my sleep most of the time during shift. This was also the month where I last talked to my sister after a mix up with her in-laws. Celebrated Jaggy’s 40 days by rounding up the the rest of the Troopers for mass and get together where everyone wore green. Received a Notice to Explain letter from HR for allegedly not showing up for an account interview. Thank goodness for that email, it saved my behind! Winnie’s Gelo was baptized and attended cool_amy’s babyshower. Also had a glee time in watching Kc and Richard’s For the First Time with CarmTeng who we rarely saw due to her busy, busy schedule.








October – Still diddly daddlying over my idle time. Thinking that I should be given an award for the employee who’s been floating for the longest time (then realized that someone has already beaten me to it. Darn!). My online job was suspended during this time. Probably due to the recession that the US was having. Ideas of working abroad already fleeting in my mind. Had plans of resigning by December. Celebrated Mr. A’s birthday, along with Sinisterbucks’. Cool_amy also gave birth to her daughter, Andie. Most of the Troopers were planning a Boracay trip in which I really didn’t have any plans of going but due to the generous funding of Cornkernel for my one way ticket, I gave in. This was also the month where my beloved K800i was lost in a bus ride home. Grieved for it for one week by crying. Was robbed while sleeping in the sleeproom on the same week. Was thinking that I’m probably the most jinxed person in earth that time and that God must be punishing me for my sins. Thanking Mr. A in those times that he was convincing me I was not and for cheering me in his own sweet but bullish way. Lent me Copper for the meantime (his 8210.. oldie but reliable phone) . Was a bit worried of being laid off after news flew around that all floating employees will be given the axe if still accountless by Nov. 1. Also thought that it would be convenient on my part since I will probably get a large sum of separation benefits that would answer all my money problems. Was already computing how much I’ll be getting when I got a call from HR saying that I already have an account – darn! Want to thank lovekosileah and Jayson for all the favors that they did for me during this month. This was also the month where the infamous I have a friend poem of mine was aired in a birthday special that Astrobabe made for Sinisterbucks. Hayz!

November- went on a 4 day trip to Boracay. Forgot my pocket money and ended up having Mr. A covering for me for the rest of the trip. Had a bit of a misunderstanding with him along the way. It was also during this trip that he learned that his brother passed the Chem Eng boards and this lead him to his plan of pursuing his PT career by taking up the boards next year. Told me that he wouldn’t be resigning in December after all which lead me to think, ‘ Hey, I guess I’ll be on my own.. but what the heck, I would rather know that you took the damn exams and will learn that you had aced it by searching for your name on the internet because I’m already half way across the world. ‘ It was a bit of an issue for me for several weeks and I really don’t know why. Went back to morning shift for Client Specifics training for RD. Met new people, one of them was my seatmate for the entire training course, gulliver7890 of HR, who made me laugh with his side comments along with the thought that what a waste he was gay. Saw myself five years ago thru the newly grad kids who were the rest of my classmates in Training. Spent the extra hour after class everyday, composing my detailed email replies for Mr. A about the things that I want to share to him for that day. Since we had completely different work schedules , the only time we get to see each other then was when he gets off from work, he would pass by our training room to wave goodbye to me. Watched a concert of a guy who was an AI runner up with Sinisterbucks at Glorieta where I was a bit irritated at first since we were standing the whole time but ended up enjoying it anyway because we were situated near the production box and I got to see how they operated the sound effects and all. Also had a night of guy talk with him, no alcohol involved. Cool_ Amy’s Andie was baptized and we all headed out to watch Twilight while having a phone conference with CarmTeng where everyone greeted her an advance happy birthday.

December- Started my return as a supervisor on the floor. My days of bumming around were over. Back to GY shift again. Had a bit of a time adjusting since I have to fend off for myself for a while.. but thanks to some helpful colleagues, I’m now managing ok . Had a problem though with getting to know my direct reports. Seems that people around don’t know each other that well. Started the series of Christmas shopping days where me and Mr. A would immerse ourselves in staying past our bedtime to shop for gifts. Usually had like 3 hours of sleep during these days. Had the annual Trooper Christmas Party celebration where we had a lunch and movie gimmick just like the old days. Watched a movie starring Keanu Reeves where I soundly slept through it and I actually woke up after the movie ended.. Darn! Attended the Aegis PS Christmas Party.. Same old same old there.. We didn't get to win anything..again! Saw an old highschool friend of mine where we had a quick exchange of where is who and who is doing what while he accompanied me while I finish off my last minute Christmas shopping. Spent Christmas eve at work. Got a beautiful silver bracelet and a mini lion stuffed toy on top from Mr. A. Very generous gift! Supported the local movie industry by watching Ang Tanging Ina ninyong Lahat.

Saw my sister again after going AWOL for 3 months.
She bought along Salem, who stayed with us for several days. Dad was also at home and there was an instance where we were complete as a family again.
Spent New Year's Eve at work. Didn't get to see any fireworks.. and, I was in a sup call when the clock struck twelve! Great! So does that mean I'll be having these sup calls all year round??! Happy New Year to Everyone! Mr. A and I went to church to say thanks and say a lil prayer for Jaggy's birthday.. had our very first new year's lunch where I got to get a glimpse of Dexter's final episode via Alliepod.. I wouldn't go and describe the rest of the details,since 2009 has already began.. and 2008 was just like last night's shift.




So there we go folks.. My 2008, as far I can remember it. It's been a whirlwind of a year and one important thing that I have learned from 2008: Life is short.. the people around you may not be the same people who you'll be with tomorrow, things can change in a blink of an eye.. so you must make every second worth it. I know it's a cliche, but I guess, it wouldn't make such an impact if you haven't had anything to relate it to. I had lots last year.. and I learned it the hard way, and with this, I would like to say thank you to the people who have helped me in surviving it. By opening my eyes to new views and perspectives, and by adding more reasons for me to be thankful everyday. Though, I'm fairly worried what 2009 may bring, I know that I still have to brave each passing day as the new year progresses.. And with the Latin saying, Carpe Diem.. I end this recollection of my 2008 memories and will hope everyone will always live their lives to its fullest.

My 2008 in Calendar Moments: Part 1

I know I haven't blogged for the longest time. It's either I had the inspiration to write but was not near a pc or my doodle pad, and when I did get to one, all the thoughts that I want to let out were already gone, or I really didn't feel like writing (Haha.. that's what I call a lazy mind!).

I was only jolted into writing again when I realized that I have frequent spells of forgetfulness these past few weeks, the last one was just a few moments ago when I can’t remember what I was supposed to do next while browsing the web and shifting to my desktop. I got a lil scared. Is this a symptom of dementia or alzheimer’s or my memory is just getting poorer as a sign that I’m I’m truly growing old, or my mind just warps faster before I act.. Whatever the cause maybe, this reeled me into at least making a sort of a record book of the things, moments , feelings and ideas that continue to shape me as to what I am today. So when I’m old and I’m clouded with dementia or old age, I have something to look back to and say.. ‘My, I led a very colorful life! ‘

As the whole world already rung the new year away by now, I will begin by making up for the things that happened to me back in 2008 that I wasn’t able to record, while I can still clearly remember them in my own way..


January –After celebrating the new year in my aunt’s place in Fairview, I began my first month of being the highest paid bum in PS. Spent my working days supervising a group of agents who are floatees since my old account moved to Cebu (just made sure that they show up for work and sign the roster), surf aimlessly, chat with Mr. A via YM and on the phone. I also remember that this was the month where we began our gastronomical adventures by eating at different restaurant every night after shift. We mostly conquered the Indian ones. My sister also got married and gave birth to her first son – Alexis Mikhail. We call him Salem.


February – Still floating. Still doing the same thing everyday except I was given an extra task to make myself useful by helping out with the QA work for PPC Cebu. I remember that this was the month Sinisterbucks resigned from work.. (or was it January or March?). Valentine’s Day.. got a long stemmed rose in a box with an orange bow from Mr. A, along with a kiss in the cheek (all together now.. awww..!). Gave him a bunch of his fave chocolates. Sweet no?


March – Still floating..
Most of the agents already went to their own accounts by this time . That only left me and one agent who are still orphans. Employees who are uncategorized in HRIS. Spent my days researching for the upcoming trip that we will be having in April. Withstood the long lines of applying for an SSS ID and passport. Applied for my first government loan(s) and struggled with my hair. I must had like 4 haircuts during this month.. Haha.

April- Went abroad to HK and Macau- my first unsupervised out of the country trip. Learned a lot of traveller’s tips – the hard way. Saw a lot, Walked a lot on our first night in Macau. Got a panic attack on our first night in HK (we fell asleep laughing). Had a foot race in Disneyland’s garden. Got a bit testy with each other on our last day over a broken mirror and flimsy lies. Cried in the lounge of the Venetian and ended up going back to Manila, limping and still together (whew!) Who am I with?
That would be left unnamed.

Learned that cool_amy’s expecting by accident. Learned to be tactful when dealing with such situations. Winnie gave birth to her own bundle of joy, Gelo.


May – Nadj_urbandove and Katqt flew to Malaysia on their own to compensate for the trip that they weren’t able to join the previous month.Celebrated my birthday (along with cool_amy’s) with a surprise bash in Max’s restaurant. Was also surprised by the return of Cornkernel from his voluntary exile in SG. Got a lot of gifts (thanks guys!) Got an online job thru odesk to make use of the idle time I had as a floatee, got to talk to some new people but usually spent my shifts alone since Mr. A started working GY again. Always rushing in the morning to come to work so we could have atleast breakfast together. My online job ends at 2am and I have to get up at 6am to make it on time..so that leaves me sleeping most of time in the afternoons. Haha..


June- Since my online job and social life really took the toll on my sleeping time, I decided to go back to GY, with the inspiration coming from Melvin’s work hours during which he came to work on a gy shift for the night diff when he was still part of the floating crew. Co-Organized Astrobabe’s birthday which was celebrated in Dampa for the 2nd time in a row. Saw Jaggy for the last time (sob!) in which a cloud of sadness was noticeable in her demeanor that day. Got a bit tipsy and was laughing aloud all the way out of MOA






To be continued since blogger already spent an all nighter uploading and changing another multiply page.

Cancelled!

Cancelled Trip2,
originally uploaded by intheloo.

Well.. we're supposed to go to the Manila Ocean Park today, even after all the other folks have cancelled last Sunday.. but I haven't heard anything from my supposed to be companion since we talked yesterday so I guess we're not goin..

I am a bit disappointed since I really wanted to see this.. but he said that we should wait until the place is complete so we would really get our money's worth..

Well.. he has a point there.. but I sure wish the next trip wouldn't be like this..

Harry's Last Stand

Right now, I'm taking a short break from reading the final book from the Harry Potter series : Harry Potter and the Deathly Hollows. I'm actually down to Chapter 11 and I'm really finding the whole story full of adrenaline rush with all the close calls and attacks the characters have to go through during the first few chapters. Whew! Don't worry, I'm not going to spill the beans or anything. It would be best if you would be reading it for yourself, right? I must admit that I'm torn between trying to finish everything today before I go back to work tomorrow early morning, or just relishing each line (just like what Rednax must be doing!) since this would be the last time that I would ever read anything new about the most popular wizard in the world. I remember the first time I came across the story of Harry Potter and his magical world. I was in college then and I was already hearing about the craze about it. I first saw the movie.. I was awed and it made me want to buyt the first 3 books then. But not until I read the Goblet of Fire, which I really want to thank my former sweetheart, who graciously and unselfishly lent me the book to read, even though he was not done with it yet and his brother might kill him for lending it to someone. It became my favorite book in the series and I was hooked.

FACt: I have never bought a single Harry Potter book in my life. Yeah, I actually read all of them, and we even have all but the Goblet book, (most of them were acquired by my sister, and their British copies to boot! and Order of the Phoenix was bought by my sister). But I will buy my own copy, and am prepared to shell out 1305 bucks for a hardcopy since this would be the last book..

Oh well, back to reading.. "Accio, book!" hehe.

When it rains, it pours (the bad kind)

I'm grieving right now.. grieving alone infront of my station, with a throbbing headache due to the 3 glasses (cocktail glasses!) of margarita I drank at Gerry's for Jayson's post breakfast birthday treat. I should be working on QA or something, but since our weekly deliverables were cut down in half (breathe!) I have a lot of freetime after shift.. (right not I have time to compose this blog.)

Ouch! I could feel the pain in my head and I really just want to go home and sleep. I'm logged out of ym right now. Like I said, I'm grieving over something that never should have been, never been there in the first place. Well, thanks to that stupid email, which was carelessly forwarded..coupled with fits of jealousy, and there goes everything that made me happy for the past so and so months (or has it been years already?) would you believe that I'm getting teary eyed right now as I am typing this? Of course! All I could do is to just reminisce and think of things that could not be taken back anymore, and to think, most of my support group (and I'm sorry, but it's not the Troopers) are in the gy shift.. I just get to be with them for a short period of time since I'm in this shift. I really wish I'm back on the gy shift. Things are alot simpler when I'm working gy then.

When it rains, it pours.. in this case, I'm being rained down with unfavorable moments.. aside from the break in my personal life, work seems to demotivating me altogether too. I won't go into specific details, and I'm really too tired to understand anymore. All the redtape and possible backbiting..the unreasonable workload.. Arrgghh!

I wish that this would pass.. I wish that this would all end. That I would just be over you.. not to wait for any text, not to wait for any ym mssgs to send me off through the day, no more signs that I might be atleast worth something valuable to you.. and I wish that I will have the better understanding to let the red tape in my work pass by, maybe have the reasoning that they might need it better than I do..but would that make me an employee that just turns on a blind eye and a deaf ear to all of those crap?

I hope that I would be back to my normal self, only better since I know I have survived yet another struggle in my life. But for now, all I could do is to get on with my life for now, try my best to just keep personal and professional into 2 different areas of my life, and hopefully time will just heal everything, like it always does.

Backtracking

Im writing this around 4am on Saturday early morning. My ears kinda hurt and my head is feeling woozy since I might be coming down with a slight fever or something. The past few days have been a major adjustment for me since I am now leading the life of a semi normal person in terms of schedule. Ever since I started to work for this industry, I was working the gy shift. Right now, I have the 4am-1pm sched.. Fri Sat off. Sure, it's a bit weird because I have to get up at 2am, which means that I have to be asleep around 8pm. The first few days were all hustle and bustle since I have to take a cab everyday just to get there on time.. (I have to login before 4am to get the night shift allowance) and when I get there, after a few minutes of reading my emails, I have to go ahead and barge my agents since I have some who will be logging out at 6am.. then I do the rounds of checking up on everyone (how they're doing and everything) and not to mention, the meetings that I have in between.. Yup, I lead a busy life in this shift, but once it's 1pm, it's usually a breeze to work on the deliverables since I'm not that too tired, although, I fell asleep one time while doing QA. But what I love most about this shift is that when I go home (which is around 4pm), I see people going home with me.. (re: RushHour!) I love it as I walk the streets of Ayala and see the hundreds of working people like me, hurrying to their appointments or wherever and it just feels more alive.
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We actually got together last week to celebrate my friend Techy's birthday. We watched Harry Potter (which again, did not live to its book counterpart!) and just hanged out until Thursday early morning at Starbucks. We also learned that Keith has retracted his resignation (yipee! double yipee for astorbabe!) since he was offered a position as part of the TAG team for Earthlink.. (Thanks to Chino!)
I get to see him around now,walking with his clipboard at hand, looking like a surveyor.. hehe!





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From the prose collection of Stella Deranged..


I made the resolution to finally call it quits.
I give up.
Maybe I just deluded myself in believing in those times where you were so nice, where in fact, that was just some innate trait since you treated everyone who's close to you that way.

No tears.
I may have used up all my tears reserved for this event. The difference is that today, I really meant it.

No sad goodbyes.
You won't see any farewell letters, confession letters, what might have been letters.. I'm just going to forget you cold turkey.
You will never know, or atleast you won't hear from me that I have felt this way towards you,though, if you say you didn't at least felt it, I might really start to wonder what planet you came from..

Saturday Fun Machine

It was one hell of a Saturday weekend that I had last June 30. My early day began at 12am on the floors of the Emergency Room at Makati Med where I waited for almost an hour to have my eyes checked. I'm really glad that I had my trusty cellphone and of course Rednax and his swollen lip story to keep me entertained during that time. Believe it or not, but an ant got into my eye, and because of that (and due to the fact that I was trying to remove the damn thing myself a few hours before I went there), my eyes were hurting, the slow hurting kind. Thank goodness, it was removed! My eyes felt a bit numbed and kinda red, and it was still a bit painful, but nevertheless it felt better. Thank goodness I have maxicare!

We then celebrated my friend's Astro's birthday that afternoon by having lunch at Dampa (the one in Macapagal Ave). We actually had a seafood pigout and hogged (actually , they did!) the videoke microphone for the entire 2 1/2 hours we stayed there. Sinisterbucks also came (to Astro's delight!) but was a bit tipsy because of the beer he drank at a party he just been to before joining us. It was fun since the most of the original Troopers were there, and I couldn't help but feel nostalgic about it as we left the place. I soon realized how much we've grown, how pretty much we lead our own lives, but still, we managed to be there for each other, never failing to let our presence felt to each other.


After that hearty meal. we went to the Mall of Asia to watch Transformers the movie. Katqt, CoolAmy and Kakeru went ahead since Katqt has to be with Nadj for a baptism, CoolAmy, has to sleep for that night's shift, and Kakeru was off to celebrate he and Al's monthsary together. (eww!) Hehe!




Transformers was really cool! I have to admit that I really enjoyed the movie. Hooray to Steven Spielberg and Michael Bay for giving it justice! I was thrilled to see the autobots and decepticons come to life.. although there were some minor flaws in the movie, I still give it an 88%, and I could say that it was one of the best movies I've seen so far for this year!

Some of us went to work (with Techy rushing off after the movie, and Jaggy being a few minutes late!), most of us went home with Astro and Sinisterbucks going off to different directions.. while Rednax and me were stuck in a bit of traffic. I felt the excitement and lack of sleep catching up on me at that moment when I was at the FX cab while listening to Rednax as he tells me his amusing stories about his friends. It suddenly rained but I still went home dry since Rednax, the ever gentleman that he is, lent me his "manual" umbrella.. I actually came to work with barely 2 hours of sleep, with tons of deliverables to finish (which went to waste eventually but that's a different story!) but what the heck, it was worth it!

Sad to Say Goodbye

"Tin, nagsumbit na ako.. last week ko na nga to eh.." "Ows?"
"Oo nga.."
"Ayyy..." (Hug!)


That was what transpired when Keith told me one last Saturday that he already passed his resignation and this was going to be his last week. It never occured to me the gravity of his decision it until now, when I realized that I won't be able to see much of him anymore. Yeah, I know that this is inevitable, that we really can't expect that we'll be staying in PS forever, and that he might have better opportunities outside, but it's quite different to see someone who's close to you go, and you know that he's not going to be there all the time anymore whenever you need him.

Keith was may batchmate from New Hire, all the way to Experian.. I remember the first time I met him when he joined our noisy ,little group ( DuaNE, eD aND mE) on our first day for lunch and Duane joked about his age. Hehehe...but we then became good friends when we were already full pledged agents for Experian. I know him as sort of a law abiding citizen ( I remember when he refused to cross the intersection of SM Dept Store to Ace Hardware if he was not in the pedestrian lane..with a dash of perv in his blood (my sister's wet panties anyone?) =)

Hmm.. the best times I probably remember Keith are for those times when he cheers me up whenever I'm down in the dumps..Even if he can be the crankiest person ever..

Like that time when I cried when I was an agent when a supervisor reprimanded me for taking my break without asking permission.. and I went down to the 30th floor and I was so upset, I cried. He treated me to french fries At McDonalds afterwards.

and there was this time when I was so upset because I discovered something heartbreaking about my so called lovelife that really messed up the illusion.. he just kept me company, and we just went to Starbucks and talked to me about it..

and of course the time when he brought me flowers for my birthday!

The times when he would visit me at JG..

and of course, he was the one I bug whenever Alex is not around.. and now Saturdays will be so lonely now since Alex will be rarely around now.. (due to Tennis matches,his budget, and his upcoming review for his board exams)

At our Bible Study today, someone said, 'You'll never know the value of someone, until they're gone.." I suddenly realized how valuable my dearest friend really is.. and now,I feel like crying.. I will certainly miss him terribly..

..and now another one expressed his sentiments of going away.. for good.. Great! Saving the worst for last!

Back for Good..

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originally uploaded by mramos.

Wow! It's good to be posting here again.. After the long hiatus, I'm actually able to post here...

Alot of things happend..after that incident with my careless posting, I went into blog hiding for a while. Since then, things have been a whirlwind.. =)

Looking forward to meaningful and insightful posts!


C'est la Vie!

Life is Kinda Nice After All

I've been on a break from blogging for quite some time because I got into trouble for it. So what's a blogger to do if her privacy and right are invaded? Change the url of your blogsite and keep the postings flowing...

Anyways, it's been a month since I last posted anything here and to keep you updated, let me fill you in on what I've been up to...

*I was regularized as a Team Supervisor effective September 1. No more feelings of uncertainty and doubt. Atleast not too much anymore.

*I just celebrated 3 years of stay at PeopleSupport as well. Another year? Do I hear the ticking of a Kenneth Cole watch? I don't think so..

* Got the award for being the Best Team for August. After months of being last amongst the micro team rankings, my team (MCROCKERS) got the highest rated team for last month..and hopefully if I get to fix our team's SAF, we will be gettig this month as well.

*Was the highest rated supervisor for August as well. =)

*One of my agents was promoted as Supervisor Trainee for a different account effective this October 15.

*Became a full pledged popcorn eating,soda drinking, movie buff for the whole month of September.

* Cancelled membership with Fitness First. Gained weight. Hoping to lose it by October.

*Sold my stocks...Should've not done it since it's much higher right now and the dollar rate is lower. Still finding time to bring my check to the bank.

*Bought the entire season of DVDs of TV shows that I want to watch on Saturdays, and come Sunday, watch all the episodes the whole day.


*Always had a great weekend for the entire month of September. was always looking forward to it all month.. sigh! =) Hopefully, it would still be the same for next..


Hmm.. I can't think of anything more. But basically, the goals that I want to achieve as a Supervisor that I have listed in my mind back then are already coming to life one by one, and I'm so proud of it. Thanks to God! Now how about giving me the same for my personal life as well... =) Well, a girl can't wish for too much..

Me and my Tactless Thoughts

I am in trouble...

Just don't want you to go

I'm sorry if I said 'bahala nga kayo"... I only said that because I was a bit upset that you suddenly submitted your letter, like you just did it for the sake of getting it over and done with. I just don't know how to react..what to do or what to say but be upset and be mad. We were both so quiet all throughout the ride, each of us both lost in our own thoughts. I will never knew what was going on your mind but I know mine is all about my life after you're gone, silently making a list of the reasons why I am being upset just because you're going to resign. So far, here's what I have thought of:

~I don't want you to go yet because I don't have someone to go home with every morning. The way home will be less interesting (and believe me, it is!)
~I don't want you to go because going to work every night won't be that exciting anymore because you won't be around (yeah, even if we just see each other in the morning, the thought of knowing you're just 2 floors below me is sort of comforting for some reason)
~I don't want you to go because I won't have anyone to watch my back, not just against the backbiting and unfairness in my account, but against everything else.
~I don't want you to go because Saturdays will be so lonely without you, hanging out with me.
~I don't want you to go because I won't have anyone to ask to comfortably whenever I need help with anything (especially with the MS application stuff!)

~I don't want you to go because you're the one who has become the closest to me, my confidante and probably my bestfriend right now.(yeah even if half the time we just trade jokes,and there are times when you can be a bit self-centered!)

~I don't want you to go because I just realized that you may be worth more to me than I could have thought of...and the thought of losing you just made me realize that...

~I don't want you to go because I just don't want to... period. Why? I don't know. I just don't know.

La na nga si Jaggy,sumunod ka pa agad...sana isa isa lang ang attrition di ba? =(

To be continued because writer is too much upset for still unknown reasons....

The Long Week that was....

It's been a long week for me.. I'm glad that I'm on my weekend restday and I'll get to spend the whole day Sunday in my bed until I go to work for hopefully a better week. Being a supervisor can be oh so draining at times, and it doesn't help that you have lost confidence in the higher powers of my professional life. Sometimes, I find myself just staring at my pc aimlessly at the excel sheets, email floods, feedback forms,jabber broadcasts and a hundred other things that are messing up my screen, until someone will approach me and interrupt me to ask for a bank routing number. Like what someone told me, it comes with the job . Now, I'm sort of low in the confidence department right now. I'm really just a step away from my judgement day when suddenly, Mr. Bean called me one day in his presence and told me that I was somehow responsible (although he made a disclaimer that it was not so, but who is HE kidding?) for two agents who were given warnings because of the performance management program. I was surprised because I was not expecting that those two agents will be one, my close friend and agent 2 is someone who even praised me in her appraisal. I really felt bad after that time that I wanted to cry. Ofcourse, being a supervisor, you don't have the right to show your personal emotions especially to your agents who are also low in morale themselves because of the things that have been happening on the floor since they look up to you for motivation and inspiration. I distanced myself from my peers,just getting in touch with them on official and business matters (I don't care if they will take this personally against me since what we require is just harmonious working relationship and not be chummy with each other). I just do whatever needs to be done in my work. I know that I may seem alienating myself, but I am not really a hypocrite. I had seen enough. With all the demands and expectations of my position right now, I have learned that the simplest things are the reasons why I always made it through the day in one piece. I find my solace with the few (oh so few) of my true friends who has the initiative to drop by my station and amuse or make me laugh with silly jokes and the latest gossip and who really asks me how I am feeling right now. I find my relief everytime I see my 'sundo' as I know that his presence always meant that we will soon be going home,as soon as I finish whatever I have to do for the day, which will prompt me to really finish it double time to just get out of the floor. I feel a rush everytime I receive a particular jab from someone as I know that this will result to a fruitful exchange of ideas(stimulating), I find some slack in having my lunch break with the non-ops people nowadays as this gives me free time away from ops floor. Seeing someone from my direct reports thank me because I have helped them in improving their performance reminds me that this job in this account can still be rewarding afterall. I love it when I know it's Friday shift since this means that it will be Saturday in a few hours and it's my restday and I can't wait to eat lunch somewhere good. These are the things that kept me alive this past week. I wonder what will happen for next week?

The Kilig Factor

At first I was not noticing you..You were just another face that I see everyday...But then, one fine day, I started to notice you in a different light...I don't know why..maybe it's the fact that others are also quite taken by your silent charm. The following days were really something else... I may seem like someone who can really hide her feelings because no one seem to notice it..That I am one of your silent admirers. But then,I know this is nothing serious..again, like any other good guys out there, it's impossible that you're not taken yet.... So what? I always look forward coming in every night (and it's good that we both have the same rest days already) since I know I'll be catching a glimpse of you even from afar... It's my own private escape to revel in the feeling of contained happiness at every moment that our eyes will meet, or whenever you'll find time to get in touch with me about anything. Sigh! Thanks for making my days extra special (and more bearable...) =)

Time to Fall In love...

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The Time to Tell

me and Polgosa during happier times
Originally uploaded by mramos.

Let me take the time out to give a tribute to my cat of more than 10 years who passed away 2 weeks ago..To Polgosa, my very sociable and darling cat, I know your'e at kitty heaven right now..may you rest in peace! It's a shame though that you couldn't wait until I get married or maybe just have a new guy to entertain, since you're so good at it!)

Let me take the time out as well to announce that come July 16, I'm a Supervisor (Trainee) for 3 mos now... how time just flew by and I could not believe how I survived those sleepless (most of the time) days and nights.... Learned a lot and discovered a lot of things within myself... also discovered that a Supervisor is not just a Supervisor, but a million other roles as well....

Let me take the time out as well to tell you that I have developed a crush on someone (and nope it's not HIM), and it seems to grow more everyday, while my relationship with the obvious seems to fade for the reason I don't know why... (is it me, is it you, or is it the classic saying familiarity breeds contempt?)

Let me take the time out as well to tell you that I just confirmed that crush is currently in a relationship right now (awww..disappointed)..and I actually searched his profile in friendster).. Sigh!

Let me take the time out to tell you that I am really considering (and really) to distance myself from HIM, since I am oh so tired of the guessing game (which with the clues I am getting, wala naman siguro talaga. I'm a bit upset with him right now because I did not like the way he replied at the chatpad last night when I commented why it takes so much time before he ca answer my question, which is simply,

pwede ba sumabay sa lunch mo?

..which he answered,

sorry, rep lang ako...kaya may calls, q'in kami..sorry

and I was like, where did that come from? What's with the mean streak? What happend to the If they treat you badly there, you know where to find me... Maybe, he's just having a bad day since he also got into a row with one of his friends in retention, who he favors more nowadays..

Let me take the time out to tell you that I almost submitted my resignation letter (I know, I know, this is also one thing that never seems to materialize) because of my so called Principles..Wow, I feel so righteous! I am ready to give up my current stature just because I can't take the whitewash and politics in our account. My mom just talked me out of it and the thought that my friends are there (including the one who I am supposed to look for anytime Im i trouble) to keep me sane and to keep my feet planted firmly in the ground, until I become regularized!

Let me take the time out to tell you that I'll be having weekends off again (10pm-7am) Whoopee! I am supposed to have 3 consecutive rest days but since I have tons of paperwork to do (feedback and all), I have to go towork tonight!

Let me take the time out to tell you that I should be resting right now because I am so sleepy and I still have to go to work tonight....Till next time!

Good day folks!