Pre-Valentine Mush

♥ Its the Love Month, Baby! ♥

So what a way to get into the jitterbug-toe-curling-deep-sighing-takes-your-breath-away mood than to share a classic tale of one of everyone's favorite cliche topic : Soulmates.. (tale also includes references on gays, lebians and the arts..) I found this post during one of those rare times where I get to surf non related work sites in the middle of the night and when I came across it, I suddenly realized that Valentine's Day is definitely around the corner. So..before I have to write all other kinds of stuff to ruin the mood (I'll save that for later on this week.. hehe..) Let me just tell you all about the Myth of Love:

Do you ever wonder if you really have a soulmate?
Do you ever wonder why there are gays and lesbians?
Don't you ever wonder why some people love their same sex?
Do you ever wonder why some people love their opposite sex?
And do you ever wonder why these love are indestructible?
Why do most people seem to cannot live without someone to love?
And finally, why is it that people do not know what they have until it is gone?

It was said that before, in the origin of times, there were three sexes;male, female, and androgyne.

Original humans do not look like how we humans look today. Humans before were said to be twice of each person now, with two heads, two pair of eyes, two pair of lips, four hands, four feet, two bodies, two hearts, and of course two genitals.

Then, if the person has two vaginas, that is a female. If the person has two penis, that is a male person. If the person has both the two different organs, a vagina and a penis, then that person is an androgyne.

They said that androgynes were the most beautiful people among all because they have mostly the best features and characteristics of both the male and the female.

Because these people dream of being in heaven, even if they already have the heavens in their selves, they want to experience it even for just a little while.

And so they climbed to Mount Olympus. Zeus got furious upon seeing the people going up the mountain. He said, “How dare these immortals climb our wondrous world? And to think I'd let them experience it! Especially now that they do not cherish what they have!!!” He got so mad that he used his lightning bolts to cut each person in half to make them weaker enough so as not to continue on climbing.

The God of Healers healed the wounds of the people cut in half. And from then on, everyone started to look out for their pair the moment they got down from the mountains.This is why there is the term soulmates. Their bodies, in which their souls rest, used to be one. Therefore soulmates.

They said that this is also the reason why there are people who love their same sex, the gays and lesbians. They are the males and females before. And this also explains why gays are creative, because they are both males before, they tend to concentrate on what they lack. The same thing for lesbians. Because they are both females before, they tend to be strong as not to be underestimated.

Androgynes would be equal to male and female lovers. That is why nowadays these couples are the most acceptable, stronger, and the most beautiful among all partners, they have the strength of both males and females.

Lovers nowadays, whether gay, lesbian, or male and female couples, are indestructible because they are the pairs before. They are really meant to be.

This myth also explains why it is natural for people to just realize the value of the people they love only when they are about to be gone or are already gone. Because this happened even before, and we become weaker without our pair. We realize that we need them, truly love them, and that together, we are stronger.

This is also why we kiss. We always try to find the lips wherein ours will fit well.

This is also why we like to hold hands with the one we love, to find out if the spaces between their fingers are the spaces where ours used to lay.

And finally, this is why we always find someone to love. We always want to complete ourselves... Because we need the strength of the one we love in order to go on with the hardships of life... we need to fill in a missing space... and most of all, because we used to have two hearts. We need to find the other one.


All together now.. Awwww..

May everyone have that chance to find their missing halves.

My 2008 in Calendar Moments: The 2nd Half of the Year

Alrighty.. so here's part 2 of my year 2008 Calendar Moments based on how I remembered those memories.. I know this recollection is a bit too late, I actually had this composed a long time ago.. couldn't find the time to post it really.. so here goes:



July- Spent the day in Jayson’s pad with inkie and luvkosileah with Mr. A in tow. Saw some snippets of my very first rompy video. Getting bored and self pitying over my orphaned status at work. Had an argument over a laptop which led me to slam down the phone but ended up seeing a back to back movie, a dinner charged to a credit card and being vulnerable by opening up to things until the wee hours of the morning over affordable iced coffees that lead me to understand him better .
Celebrated Cornkernel’s birthday by going to Rockwell, local stargazing, and watching The Dark Knight – a movie which we sat through the entire 2 hour run despite the nagging calls of nature.



August – got hooked into Twilight. Was reading an online copy of it while chatting with Mr. A via ym not knowing that a few hours after wards, I will get one of the most devastating phone calls of my life. I remember my mom waking me up, panic in her voice saying that someone from SOCO was on the phone about a certain Rue Ann.
My mom was already scared since she knows that SOCO is synonymous with bad news. I brushed the idea off and walked over the phone thinking that Jaggy might just be stranded somewhere. I was wrong. Jaggy was found murdered somewhere in a place I’ve never heard of and I was the first one to know about it. With that triggered the series of events that until now,are still vivid in my mind. . I remember speaking with the officer on the other line asking him if this was a scam or a joke. I remember Inkie calling me on my cellphone right after putting the phone down, like it was on queue of a next act telling me that Jaggy’s workmates are texting her because Jaggy didn’t show up for work. I remember calling Mr. A about it and suddenly crying and asking him to accompany me since my mom doesn’t want me to go to the police station alone. I remember calling Eryll about it and thinking how could I explain the reason why I needed her help in getting in touch with her relatives in far away Gen San. The travel to the ayala mrt station, crying along the way. Was thinking if all of it was just a bad dream. Also remembered if we should break the news to Katqt since it dawned to me that it was her birthday on that same day too. Well, we won’t certainly forget her birthday anymore. Saw the purpose of the freedom in my work schedule during that time since I was able to help out with the things that needs to be fixed during that tragedy. Maybe that’s the real reason why I remained a floating employee. All of us had sacrficed something during this moment: Family, Time, work, career opportunities. Made me appreciate life and the people around me even more. Was sleepless during the entire wake. Got into a row with a company lawyer and a wannabe manager. More tears and a few fears during the aftermath. We will certainly miss her forever.
Back to work, got into trouble with Mark of Helpdesk involving my pc files getting into a restricted account’s pc. Ended up sending apology emails to Mr. A’s supervisor and one of the TM’s in my former account. Lost a few more sleep over that too since I was worried that Mr. A would get a warning for that. Which luckily, he didn’t.


September - Still the highest paid tambay with night differential to boot.
Celebrated the monumental 5 year mark in PS where I finally got
my Kenneth Cole watch.
Getting bored but still entertained with my odesk job and my seatmate, trainer Socki. There’s still Mr. A ofcourse, who always bombards me with text messages and calls as to where the heck am I at past 11pm. Sinisterbucks really did a small favor for me which I will be forever thankful for. Mr. A flew to Singapore , leaving me to catch up on my sleep most of the time during shift. This was also the month where I last talked to my sister after a mix up with her in-laws. Celebrated Jaggy’s 40 days by rounding up the the rest of the Troopers for mass and get together where everyone wore green. Received a Notice to Explain letter from HR for allegedly not showing up for an account interview. Thank goodness for that email, it saved my behind! Winnie’s Gelo was baptized and attended cool_amy’s babyshower. Also had a glee time in watching Kc and Richard’s For the First Time with CarmTeng who we rarely saw due to her busy, busy schedule.








October – Still diddly daddlying over my idle time. Thinking that I should be given an award for the employee who’s been floating for the longest time (then realized that someone has already beaten me to it. Darn!). My online job was suspended during this time. Probably due to the recession that the US was having. Ideas of working abroad already fleeting in my mind. Had plans of resigning by December. Celebrated Mr. A’s birthday, along with Sinisterbucks’. Cool_amy also gave birth to her daughter, Andie. Most of the Troopers were planning a Boracay trip in which I really didn’t have any plans of going but due to the generous funding of Cornkernel for my one way ticket, I gave in. This was also the month where my beloved K800i was lost in a bus ride home. Grieved for it for one week by crying. Was robbed while sleeping in the sleeproom on the same week. Was thinking that I’m probably the most jinxed person in earth that time and that God must be punishing me for my sins. Thanking Mr. A in those times that he was convincing me I was not and for cheering me in his own sweet but bullish way. Lent me Copper for the meantime (his 8210.. oldie but reliable phone) . Was a bit worried of being laid off after news flew around that all floating employees will be given the axe if still accountless by Nov. 1. Also thought that it would be convenient on my part since I will probably get a large sum of separation benefits that would answer all my money problems. Was already computing how much I’ll be getting when I got a call from HR saying that I already have an account – darn! Want to thank lovekosileah and Jayson for all the favors that they did for me during this month. This was also the month where the infamous I have a friend poem of mine was aired in a birthday special that Astrobabe made for Sinisterbucks. Hayz!

November- went on a 4 day trip to Boracay. Forgot my pocket money and ended up having Mr. A covering for me for the rest of the trip. Had a bit of a misunderstanding with him along the way. It was also during this trip that he learned that his brother passed the Chem Eng boards and this lead him to his plan of pursuing his PT career by taking up the boards next year. Told me that he wouldn’t be resigning in December after all which lead me to think, ‘ Hey, I guess I’ll be on my own.. but what the heck, I would rather know that you took the damn exams and will learn that you had aced it by searching for your name on the internet because I’m already half way across the world. ‘ It was a bit of an issue for me for several weeks and I really don’t know why. Went back to morning shift for Client Specifics training for RD. Met new people, one of them was my seatmate for the entire training course, gulliver7890 of HR, who made me laugh with his side comments along with the thought that what a waste he was gay. Saw myself five years ago thru the newly grad kids who were the rest of my classmates in Training. Spent the extra hour after class everyday, composing my detailed email replies for Mr. A about the things that I want to share to him for that day. Since we had completely different work schedules , the only time we get to see each other then was when he gets off from work, he would pass by our training room to wave goodbye to me. Watched a concert of a guy who was an AI runner up with Sinisterbucks at Glorieta where I was a bit irritated at first since we were standing the whole time but ended up enjoying it anyway because we were situated near the production box and I got to see how they operated the sound effects and all. Also had a night of guy talk with him, no alcohol involved. Cool_ Amy’s Andie was baptized and we all headed out to watch Twilight while having a phone conference with CarmTeng where everyone greeted her an advance happy birthday.

December- Started my return as a supervisor on the floor. My days of bumming around were over. Back to GY shift again. Had a bit of a time adjusting since I have to fend off for myself for a while.. but thanks to some helpful colleagues, I’m now managing ok . Had a problem though with getting to know my direct reports. Seems that people around don’t know each other that well. Started the series of Christmas shopping days where me and Mr. A would immerse ourselves in staying past our bedtime to shop for gifts. Usually had like 3 hours of sleep during these days. Had the annual Trooper Christmas Party celebration where we had a lunch and movie gimmick just like the old days. Watched a movie starring Keanu Reeves where I soundly slept through it and I actually woke up after the movie ended.. Darn! Attended the Aegis PS Christmas Party.. Same old same old there.. We didn't get to win anything..again! Saw an old highschool friend of mine where we had a quick exchange of where is who and who is doing what while he accompanied me while I finish off my last minute Christmas shopping. Spent Christmas eve at work. Got a beautiful silver bracelet and a mini lion stuffed toy on top from Mr. A. Very generous gift! Supported the local movie industry by watching Ang Tanging Ina ninyong Lahat.

Saw my sister again after going AWOL for 3 months.
She bought along Salem, who stayed with us for several days. Dad was also at home and there was an instance where we were complete as a family again.
Spent New Year's Eve at work. Didn't get to see any fireworks.. and, I was in a sup call when the clock struck twelve! Great! So does that mean I'll be having these sup calls all year round??! Happy New Year to Everyone! Mr. A and I went to church to say thanks and say a lil prayer for Jaggy's birthday.. had our very first new year's lunch where I got to get a glimpse of Dexter's final episode via Alliepod.. I wouldn't go and describe the rest of the details,since 2009 has already began.. and 2008 was just like last night's shift.




So there we go folks.. My 2008, as far I can remember it. It's been a whirlwind of a year and one important thing that I have learned from 2008: Life is short.. the people around you may not be the same people who you'll be with tomorrow, things can change in a blink of an eye.. so you must make every second worth it. I know it's a cliche, but I guess, it wouldn't make such an impact if you haven't had anything to relate it to. I had lots last year.. and I learned it the hard way, and with this, I would like to say thank you to the people who have helped me in surviving it. By opening my eyes to new views and perspectives, and by adding more reasons for me to be thankful everyday. Though, I'm fairly worried what 2009 may bring, I know that I still have to brave each passing day as the new year progresses.. And with the Latin saying, Carpe Diem.. I end this recollection of my 2008 memories and will hope everyone will always live their lives to its fullest.